I can't believe I'm missing college
OMG I am missing college!! Just for the independentness, the ability to do things more spur of the moment. It is hard to meet guys here, I tend to hang around the people who I'm become already friends with. I'm not out searching for more friends really, and anyway where would I search? Like last night at this cabin that Ang hooked us up with we had a party. There were three new guys there, but one seemed too nice, one seemed too quiet and reserved and the other was a frien's ex. My fuckin luck eh? I love my friends here though! They're fuckin awesome!! Don't mean to take that away from them! I feel like I belong here, and I did there towards the end but not as much as here. That party with some of my closest friends was the best! Those walks with Lindsay were awesome and I loved them and want more now! I want to camp now!! HAHA I want Andy now!! I stole his shirt and it smells soooo good!! haha I really miss ben! AHH 5/13 was his birthday and I sent him a package. He said that it made his day and was the best thing that happened to him on his bday! ;) That makes me really happy I could do that for him! I want to be there for him all the time! If people say being together for 2 weeks is too little of time fuck them! They don't know the feelings that were there! Going to agree to start the bakery job! 4 days a week 5-10a.m.! that's sooo fucking early i am going to die! not really I'll be fine I tested it out Saturday! I tried to trim my bangs myself and cut them wayyy to short!! Now they look horrible and I always bitch and think I look nasty!! :( That makes me really sad!! Well time to go to sleep Night~