just another day......
dear dear diary.....just another day passing by....another line to add to my already packed and chaotic life.....my friends mother died in her sleep this morning she was only 52 yrs old....great women ...hard to believe.....my life is going ok for now....i am going back to work running the lamplighter in frankenmuth.....2 jobs.....well i like the money and the more i work the harder it is for god to destroy me......i know i shouldnt talk that way but its hard not to.....still havent heard from the one i was talking about the last entry....i emailed him with no response back.....just wish i knew how he was doing...but its all good.....i have went on this long i can hang......that was a past time in my life and they say ur past will always come back to haunt u but i dont think that one will....
give me the memory to hold onto in time.......ill rememeber the laughter that made ur eyes shine.....give me the key to unlock the past.....nothing will be the same...it is over at last...
i am holding onto strings as of late.....i got another dr appt this week....hate to see that man...he is the bearer of bad news.....when is it my turn? i hope not soon.....still got alot of things i have yet to do....let me sing....let me be a star....dreams are only that "dreams" to come true is a joke.....i sang and sang at waynes over the weekend they made me sing till my voice went out....felt pretty good....keith is doin alright for the time being hes not to happy about me goin back to my second job but the money is calling my name.....some say that there is more to life than money ...to them i say ....get a life.....money makes the world go round without it there is nothing...no roof over ur head no food on ur table no clothes on ur back....so i guess i am one of those people that believe oly what i can see and not what i hear.....
everyone is over here once againplaying texas hold em....its like the place where everyone meets every other nite just to play the game.....gamblers....wittin here waiting for my desperate housewives to come on....i love that show.....im hanging with the fact of finding something to say....wish more people wld read these entries so i cd get more feedback on them....dont know too many people on here though.....
well i think im gonna get off here now ill probably be back here in a bit...boredom does that to ya....
i sit and stare at the world passing me by.....the sun comes and goes the darkness fills the sky....another day vanquished, another day come and went....another day filled with sadness, sadness god has once again sent...when will this end ...will it inevitably remain?....its torture and hatred that flows thru my veins...its bitterness and smythe that i live by day by day....god has done this to me thru the tears he forces to stay....
well thats it for now thats all i got.....tata for now sweets.....bubblez
give me the memory to hold onto in time.......ill rememeber the laughter that made ur eyes shine.....give me the key to unlock the past.....nothing will be the same...it is over at last...
i am holding onto strings as of late.....i got another dr appt this week....hate to see that man...he is the bearer of bad news.....when is it my turn? i hope not soon.....still got alot of things i have yet to do....let me sing....let me be a star....dreams are only that "dreams" to come true is a joke.....i sang and sang at waynes over the weekend they made me sing till my voice went out....felt pretty good....keith is doin alright for the time being hes not to happy about me goin back to my second job but the money is calling my name.....some say that there is more to life than money ...to them i say ....get a life.....money makes the world go round without it there is nothing...no roof over ur head no food on ur table no clothes on ur back....so i guess i am one of those people that believe oly what i can see and not what i hear.....
everyone is over here once againplaying texas hold em....its like the place where everyone meets every other nite just to play the game.....gamblers....wittin here waiting for my desperate housewives to come on....i love that show.....im hanging with the fact of finding something to say....wish more people wld read these entries so i cd get more feedback on them....dont know too many people on here though.....
well i think im gonna get off here now ill probably be back here in a bit...boredom does that to ya....
i sit and stare at the world passing me by.....the sun comes and goes the darkness fills the sky....another day vanquished, another day come and went....another day filled with sadness, sadness god has once again sent...when will this end ...will it inevitably remain?....its torture and hatred that flows thru my veins...its bitterness and smythe that i live by day by day....god has done this to me thru the tears he forces to stay....
well thats it for now thats all i got.....tata for now sweets.....bubblez