its been awile...
hey i know i know...its been a few since i last wrote in this...alot has happened though that is undescribable...god did it to me again again as he tore out the hearts of two of my loves...and then torched all hope i had for keiths life....he has 22 blood clots in his brain and its looking pretty dim....all hope is vanquishing slowly and i hate it....i hate this life that i cannot control...i hate that i have no life...i hate that everything has to change...i hate that love is not always true and love hurts in many differnet ways...i cannot go thru this ....life is hard enough....i believe that when 2 people were menat to be together they shld be just that...together...life is too short and i am living proof of not being able to keep the love of my husband..but in spirit....i wish others could see and understand that it is a gift to have a true love someone that looks at u with the admiration and affection that ur whole life u have anquished over...someone who u can grow old with and die with .... i hate it when luv is abused and i hate it when its someone i truely adore doing the abusing and no there is no excuse for it but idiocy....not knowing that the one u love is right in front of ur face and just losing him to something that cld have been helped...all it takes is a simple"i need to talk" yet some people cannot do this....it is not in them to depend on anyone but themselves....this is a trait that needs to change and love is more important than fear....well i WILL be on tmw...hopefully ill be a lil better....sorry for the confusion in this one but thats what it is, a confusing life i lead.....god give me the strength to look at u without hate and love u without spite...give me the power to heal those that need healing and bring together those that dont understand loves might....tata sweets......Bubblez