grandma..
i'm wearing my grandma's old sweater. there's nothing usual about that right? but wearing this, yes, it keeps me warm while my feet turn numb..but it makes me sad. i remember buying this with my dad for my grandma's birthday a few years ago. dad and i had gone to the mall one night before her birthday. dad didnt know what store to go to, so we decided to go to foley's..or was it dillards? we'd gone into a department store, and we couldn't find anything just right. and then i spotted this sweater. you see, there was alot of stuff we could have bought my grandma. but i wanted this gift to be perfect. my grandma had been battling cancer for a few years and wasn't supposed to go out much, because her immune system was weak. i thought to myself..an old woman stuck in her house wouldnt want a mug, or a trendy shirt, or a huge mirror. what could we get her? after looking around some more, we went back to the sweater i'd found. it was big..plain..dull gray..and very soft. it sounds ugly right? maybe, but who was she trying to impress? even when she'd been healthy, grandma didnt care too much about what she wore, it's was more important for her to be comfortable in what she was wearing rather than if she looked perfect. so we bought the big sweater. i hoped she'd like it..she was so frail compared to how she was and i knew she probably got cold alot. my grandma always had a sweater with her, and i hoped she would like this one. after her birthday, she would wear this sweater alot. a while after she passed away, mom came home from my aunts house, where grandma had lived, with 2 bags of her old clothes. i went though it and i found this sweater. it makes me sad. that i wear a sweater that i'd bought for her. it wasnt for me, but i'm the one wearing it now. yeah, i probably look ugly in it, but you know what? i still wear it, in memory of her. it reminds me of what an awesome grandma she was, as well as an awesome person in general. somehow, it feels like i'm still conneted to her. but despite this..i still feel sad. i wish so badly that she was still here, able to wear this birthday gift.