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Great. Over 2000 calories today. *sigh* *shakes head sadly*
I was doing so well earlier this week, too. No starvation or anything, just good ol' fashioned don't-eat-seconds.
I feel so crap I want to damage myself, but that's not healthy. Mental decay spreading...
Ok, I haven't exercised today. How come I have time to trawl the ana boards, but I don't have time to exercise? Fuck. FUCK.
Now I have to go study. I'd better have lost a kilo by this time next week, or... I don't know what. Or I guess... I'll... just be really disappointed in myself. And that's the worst thing, isn't it? So 6:30pm 22nd September, I need to be 1 kg lighter.
I'm hoping to be a size 10/12 by the time I'm finished with myself. I know I can do so much better. I am already so disappointed in myself. I wish I could just... carve it off with a knife or something. Good thing I am not predisposed to cutting.
I was doing so well earlier this week, too. No starvation or anything, just good ol' fashioned don't-eat-seconds.
I feel so crap I want to damage myself, but that's not healthy. Mental decay spreading...
Ok, I haven't exercised today. How come I have time to trawl the ana boards, but I don't have time to exercise? Fuck. FUCK.
Now I have to go study. I'd better have lost a kilo by this time next week, or... I don't know what. Or I guess... I'll... just be really disappointed in myself. And that's the worst thing, isn't it? So 6:30pm 22nd September, I need to be 1 kg lighter.
I'm hoping to be a size 10/12 by the time I'm finished with myself. I know I can do so much better. I am already so disappointed in myself. I wish I could just... carve it off with a knife or something. Good thing I am not predisposed to cutting.