Public to protect anonymity (weird as that sounds)
Weird as it sounds, yes, this entry will be public. Because going public opens up the realm of possible "recipients" and makes it harder to pinpoint who it's actually intended for. (shut up, it made sense in my head :P) I doubt, even on the off-chance that you read this, that you'll realize I'm talking about you, but just in case, I'm turning off commenting, because you know how to reach me, if you do.
I love you. You know that, right? I know you do. Or at least, I hope you do. I hope that I show you every day how much you mean to me.But I don't think you REALLY "get it", do you? You know that I love you, yes, but I don't think you realize that I am in love with you. I have been for years, to be honest. It scares the shit out of me, I'll be honest. Because you are one of the very best friends that I have, and I can't imagine my life if I didn't have you as a friend. Let me clarify a little, or at least try to as much as I can, anyway. I don't necessarily expect, or even need really, reciprocation, or validation. I love you, and you have the right to know that, but it doesn't change the fact that what I really want the most is for you to be happy. Even if that means not with me, I'm surprisingly okay with that. As long as you're happy, I'm happy, and content to remain as friends. In a perfect world, that happiness would be found with me, and me alone. But let's face it, we don't live in a perfect world. And, honestly? I'm not really in the market for that kind of relationship. I understand that it's possible to love more than one person at a time, on different levels. I also know that, no matter what, as your friend, there will always be that one special part in your heart that is reserved for me, and me alone. And I'm good with that. Others may not understand and accept that, but I really am. Would I like to be able to call you mine and mine alone? Yes, of course. But I'm also enough of a realist to know that no matter what, as friends or as more (if you're willing, that is), there are always going to be others in your life that I'm going to have to share you with.
Anyway... yeah. There it is. If, by some stroke of luck, you just read that, and went "ohhey, that's me!", you know how to reach me. I'm going back into my little hidey-hole now, k?
I love you. You know that, right? I know you do. Or at least, I hope you do. I hope that I show you every day how much you mean to me.But I don't think you REALLY "get it", do you? You know that I love you, yes, but I don't think you realize that I am in love with you. I have been for years, to be honest. It scares the shit out of me, I'll be honest. Because you are one of the very best friends that I have, and I can't imagine my life if I didn't have you as a friend. Let me clarify a little, or at least try to as much as I can, anyway. I don't necessarily expect, or even need really, reciprocation, or validation. I love you, and you have the right to know that, but it doesn't change the fact that what I really want the most is for you to be happy. Even if that means not with me, I'm surprisingly okay with that. As long as you're happy, I'm happy, and content to remain as friends. In a perfect world, that happiness would be found with me, and me alone. But let's face it, we don't live in a perfect world. And, honestly? I'm not really in the market for that kind of relationship. I understand that it's possible to love more than one person at a time, on different levels. I also know that, no matter what, as your friend, there will always be that one special part in your heart that is reserved for me, and me alone. And I'm good with that. Others may not understand and accept that, but I really am. Would I like to be able to call you mine and mine alone? Yes, of course. But I'm also enough of a realist to know that no matter what, as friends or as more (if you're willing, that is), there are always going to be others in your life that I'm going to have to share you with.
Anyway... yeah. There it is. If, by some stroke of luck, you just read that, and went "ohhey, that's me!", you know how to reach me. I'm going back into my little hidey-hole now, k?