keep GOING
What I DON'T want to happen..is that I get so overwhelmed with looking for an apartment that I get so frustrated and pissed off that I don't even get the fact that I still need to move out pretty soon. I want this to be an enjoyable experience. I don't want to freak out and think I'm super poor and can't afford anything, because I CAN afford a nice place. I do make a decent amount of money each month. Enough for me to live on. And both of those jobs are secure if I just keep working hard and doing me best...
And I am selling art as well. I have at least 2 projects in the works, and I do something creative at least every day. I always have thoughts and ideas flowing through my brain on what to work on next. I am moving forward. Yes, I was supposed to be getting married next month, and yes I was supposed to be moving to California this year, but plans have changed. And even though those plans have changed, I am not a failure. If I keep sulking in the past and looking to the what-could-have-been then I will never move on. I will never be happy while I am still imagining that alternate universe....
So, the best thing is to move on. God has a plan for me. But he also gave me free will. And because I have free will, I can choose to go on whatever path I see fit. As long as that path points towards God, I will be set. There will be speed-bumps and potholes and road flairs and roadkill....but I will still be walking( or driving, depending on what you see yourself in, but most likely, I'd be walking...happy earth day? lol ) down the path that is My life.
Lord, GOD! Help me to trust in you. Cuz if I leave it up to me, I will most likely become depressed and an all together BLAH person. kthxbye :)
And I am selling art as well. I have at least 2 projects in the works, and I do something creative at least every day. I always have thoughts and ideas flowing through my brain on what to work on next. I am moving forward. Yes, I was supposed to be getting married next month, and yes I was supposed to be moving to California this year, but plans have changed. And even though those plans have changed, I am not a failure. If I keep sulking in the past and looking to the what-could-have-been then I will never move on. I will never be happy while I am still imagining that alternate universe....
So, the best thing is to move on. God has a plan for me. But he also gave me free will. And because I have free will, I can choose to go on whatever path I see fit. As long as that path points towards God, I will be set. There will be speed-bumps and potholes and road flairs and roadkill....but I will still be walking( or driving, depending on what you see yourself in, but most likely, I'd be walking...happy earth day? lol ) down the path that is My life.
Lord, GOD! Help me to trust in you. Cuz if I leave it up to me, I will most likely become depressed and an all together BLAH person. kthxbye :)