last day
so happy Christmas to all my peeps first of all....
second. my last day at my first job in the culinary industry is tomorrow. I'm leaving along with the f&b director and a fellow cook. this fellow cook has been a really good friend to me. I've mentioned him before.
anyway, because we spend a lot of time together when we are working the same shift everyone thinks we are going to work at the same new spot. :( we aren't. he's moving to Austin. I wish he was staying in dallas. I'm really going to miss him. more than I thought I'd realized.
jeez I'm tearing up just writing about it now. he will be out of town for Christmas and plans to leave after new years.
I plan to spend as much possible time with him...that he will let me.
this guy is the one I've been messing around with for over a year now.
I told myself more than once to stop, to not feel anything. but lately...especially the past two months every time we hang out it feels like more. on both of our parts.
we've never talked about it and because of my last relationship I'm afraid to bring it up. but now that he's leaving its pointless. yeah Austin is only a few hours away but long distance relationships suck.
but I really like him. still. and my heart is breaking just a bit at the thought if him leaving.
because of the Christmas party especially a lot of people think we are together. ugh.
I don't like the holiday season. it makes me depressed.
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