Carved Heart ( Let my heart be heard)
As we walked to Emiline, it seems to take eons before we could reach there. The indefinite silence is the cause of the time to slow down and seems to enjoy the torture they are putting me through. I was looking at Heven when he caught my eye, i just seem to look at him sadly as if it is for a natural cause. i hope he is not thinking that i am pitying him, " hey i'm the one who is the lady here " i thought to myself. The moment i saw Emiline , i ran towards her and barged through the endless whining gate and unlock the doors to Emiline.
I looked around for Heaven but there was not sight of her. " Heaven, heaven where are you baby? " i called and then, i heard soft mews and then i saw her sleepily waking up on my bed. I heaved a relief and kissed it on her forehead, i stroke her and slept beside her. Her softness of the fur makes it all too irresistible for me to let her go and i knew she likes the warmth of my hugs. I sat up slowly and at the same time i totally forgot about Heven. So i walked to the living room and saw him stared to the window aimlessly, i felt sort of partly at fault. The fact that he hadn't spoken to Sophia when he could probably to pull Sophia from Avan but then again, it is all too mean of me. I went to the kitchen make smoothies and passed it to him. " Drink" i said gently and i took a seat opposite him, i looked across the living room and into my bedroom where the "Spring Flowers" stood and decided painfully that i need to clear things up before i got caught in the web of his quiet mind.
" Heven, the cupboard "Spring flowers" is meant for Sophia right?" i asked him as i looked into details of his eyes, shades of black and light blue that blends in to be something of a calm sea. He nodded and looked at me straight into my eyes,at which for a moment i felt naked , bare but i felt i was thinking too much into it and brushes it off with ease. " Why she left you for?" i asked again but at the same time , i undoubtedly felt rather stupid for asking such a question. " She was actually using me all the while but i despite knowing it , fell in love with her demeanour" he said slowly. " So Sophia has been eyeing on Avan?" i calmly asked and he nodded. I was speechless because i realised how a fool i was and how much i could have done to prevent him from slipping off my hands but at the same time, i felt indifferent towards Heven. It was a feeling i felt that he is longing for something and that seems to point to comfort and console from his love one but it was extinguished by one's selfishness to love another. I cried and he looked at me sadly, " i was feeling bad for making it worse for you, i bet you wanted to speak to her" i said sadly but he suddenly stood up and slapped my face. I dropped to the floor and was shocked at the reaction, "he was abhorred by me and the idea of me being here" was running through my head. I stood up and apologised, wanted to run from it when he hugged me and i slowly sat down with him still hugging me . I felt his warmth , his need , his love,his yearning that i just lifelessly never move and he cried on my shoulders , he cried like a man should and i pat his head and stroke his back to calm him down.
I felt he has fallen far too hard than i fell from love. I felt that i was there for him and he looked at me for moment, he brushed off my hair and wipe away my tears. I was embarassed to look at him when his intently blue eyes looked into mine and he kissed me intensely. i was suffocating and then, fell for his warm kiss that he gently did. I was melting and for first time , i realised that i fell in love . The person who will make a new heart breathes and smiling , is Heven but is he doing this because he desperately needed a comfort from a lady. I pushed him away when i realised he is just imagining me as her. " I'm sorry but i think you are seeing the wrong girl, you are imagining me as Sophia right?" i said again and crying terribly . He was quiet , " come on do something" i was screaming in my head. The dizziness slowly crept up to me and i faced too many whirpool of images that i blacked out.
I heard Heven's voice a moment later, i guessed. I heard and yet, i still closed my mind and sight. I was tired and i am exhausted from all this drama and linking web that endlessly locked me into abyss of pain. Not till, i saw how much i yearned for love myself, i yearned for Heven's love terribly, it is an attraction that we needed to comfort each other. " Oh God, Let my heart be heard" i prayed hard as i can feel the wind that embraces me and the warmth that on my chest and heard something else too. I woke up and saw myself in bed with Heven and Heaven on bed. Heven was hugging me and his head rested on my chest, i smiled at it and stroke his head gently. Heaven came around and sleep beside me, purring and stroking till she fell asleep. I never felt the warmth like this before but i wondered how long it will last. I stared out of the window where i slowly fell asleep with Heven. Just a simple warmth and hug from him has made me contented.
"Oh god, i am contented for the hugs and warmth i received if i could not get him to know my love" i said softly. Still, will there be hope for me to have a carved heart as gleaming as the little crystal heart. "Carved heart" i wrote on the nearby paper and fell asleep with my secret love of my heart. "Please god , let my heart be heard"