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"The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut, there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited..."
I want a car. I want to be able to get up and go whenever I feel the need. I want to travel, and see things that I haven't seen yet. I have sat around my house all weekend. I was off this weekend and last weekend and both weekends all I managed to do was clean. How exciting! But if I could travel and see things. I wouldn't spend my time thinking of how miserable my life is.
Or maye if I just had someone I could spend my time with, whether it be a friend or a boyfriend. Just so that I'm not alone and moping. I was hoping that when Justin moved closer that it would mean I would get to see him more often, but I guess I was wrong. I see him just as little as I saw him before. And he's my best friend. I miss him more than anybody, cuz I just love him to death. Who would have ever imagined that we would end up as close as we are? I know I never did, but I guess it's one of things I'm glad I didn't see coming because it was such a pleasant surprise. I jsut wish he was around more often... But he has to work and God knows I understand that.
And then there's Dayton. He's coo, we seem to mesh really welll. A totally great guy and I like spending time with him, but I don't appreciate everyone referring to him as my boyfriend, as far as I know that never was brought up, and well I dunno. He seems more like a REALLY close friend, with a little more. I mean he's more than a best friend, but.... well let's just put it this way: there seems to be no commitment between us which is fine, and actually probably makes things more comfortable. And if he was my boyf.... well....
But it's back to work tomorrow after a very uneventful weekend.. .BLAH!!!!!!!!!!
I want a car. I want to be able to get up and go whenever I feel the need. I want to travel, and see things that I haven't seen yet. I have sat around my house all weekend. I was off this weekend and last weekend and both weekends all I managed to do was clean. How exciting! But if I could travel and see things. I wouldn't spend my time thinking of how miserable my life is.
Or maye if I just had someone I could spend my time with, whether it be a friend or a boyfriend. Just so that I'm not alone and moping. I was hoping that when Justin moved closer that it would mean I would get to see him more often, but I guess I was wrong. I see him just as little as I saw him before. And he's my best friend. I miss him more than anybody, cuz I just love him to death. Who would have ever imagined that we would end up as close as we are? I know I never did, but I guess it's one of things I'm glad I didn't see coming because it was such a pleasant surprise. I jsut wish he was around more often... But he has to work and God knows I understand that.
And then there's Dayton. He's coo, we seem to mesh really welll. A totally great guy and I like spending time with him, but I don't appreciate everyone referring to him as my boyfriend, as far as I know that never was brought up, and well I dunno. He seems more like a REALLY close friend, with a little more. I mean he's more than a best friend, but.... well let's just put it this way: there seems to be no commitment between us which is fine, and actually probably makes things more comfortable. And if he was my boyf.... well....
But it's back to work tomorrow after a very uneventful weekend.. .BLAH!!!!!!!!!!