myspace from...Friday, December 02, 2005
it helps to read this
Can't we just live to be happy
..everything will find you.
If its not to be then why can't we just let go and if it is then just like i said..it will find you again.
I wish i could be the type of person who just went with there gut instinct, said fuck you at the beginning and moved on.
I sit here and look at all these girls that are sad b/c they can't find a boyfriend, or they have a broken heart (me me me). Why do we need a guy to make us happy? I mean im not saying it doesn't help me but why do we rush that and push that upon ourselves even if it isnt the right person. Sometimes it honestly just feels like everyone does it so im supposed to also. But seriously..all u need is GOOD people around you to make u get up the next morning and live your life HAPPILY.
Too bad i don't feel this way all the time..im just so sick of depending on something like LoVe.
I just wanna be happy. If what im doing isn't always making my happy..then why can't i just let go?
Honestly..i confuse the shit outta myself..i really dont know how to explain it..and when i start it sounds really bad.
I just wanna be free..completely..but even I can't do that. No matter how hard i try..there are always feelings involved..someone always gets hurt. normally me.
love = i dont remember...shit?
I never fathomed loved would be so hard to keep. I never knew it was so much work. I never knew you could go from so happy..that im on top of the world happy..to I SUCK AT LIFE..and then back to that happy again, after so much.
It all depends on what kind of mind state you are in. Because basically you can talk yourself into ANYTHING. I would be the Queen at that.
I really honestly just don't know anymore.
it just makes me so weak. i hate that power. i hate love and i love it. Is it ever easy? I wish SOMEONE could tell me how its supposed to be. But thats not possible, because its different for everyone depending on the person. I know one thing...i HATE this feeling. Its all so uncertain.
It can all be taken away at a moments notice so squeeze every drop out of every moment.
Can't we just live to be happy
..everything will find you.
If its not to be then why can't we just let go and if it is then just like i said..it will find you again.
I wish i could be the type of person who just went with there gut instinct, said fuck you at the beginning and moved on.
I sit here and look at all these girls that are sad b/c they can't find a boyfriend, or they have a broken heart (me me me). Why do we need a guy to make us happy? I mean im not saying it doesn't help me but why do we rush that and push that upon ourselves even if it isnt the right person. Sometimes it honestly just feels like everyone does it so im supposed to also. But seriously..all u need is GOOD people around you to make u get up the next morning and live your life HAPPILY.
Too bad i don't feel this way all the time..im just so sick of depending on something like LoVe.
I just wanna be happy. If what im doing isn't always making my happy..then why can't i just let go?
Honestly..i confuse the shit outta myself..i really dont know how to explain it..and when i start it sounds really bad.
I just wanna be free..completely..but even I can't do that. No matter how hard i try..there are always feelings involved..someone always gets hurt. normally me.
love = i dont remember...shit?
I never fathomed loved would be so hard to keep. I never knew it was so much work. I never knew you could go from so happy..that im on top of the world happy..to I SUCK AT LIFE..and then back to that happy again, after so much.
It all depends on what kind of mind state you are in. Because basically you can talk yourself into ANYTHING. I would be the Queen at that.
I really honestly just don't know anymore.
it just makes me so weak. i hate that power. i hate love and i love it. Is it ever easy? I wish SOMEONE could tell me how its supposed to be. But thats not possible, because its different for everyone depending on the person. I know one thing...i HATE this feeling. Its all so uncertain.
It can all be taken away at a moments notice so squeeze every drop out of every moment.