I'm so over my life.

[btbell]

Im not nearly as strong as i thougth i was. Im stupider than i ever thought possible. Why can't i just leave him be? Stuff like this doesnt happen over night. I wish i could just STOP. but i dont want to. i want this shit to end.

Its never going to stop unless i stop letting it happen. But its gonna hurt, its gonna hurt so bad.

Work is gonna suuuuckkk tomorrow!!!

I got a little christmas shopping done today.

I need to go to bed, i need to just let it go. all of it.