broken...like the pieces of my heart
40 reasons why today is quite possibly the worst day ever:
1. I had to do this twice
2. I owe $125 in taxes
3. I hate work. I want to quite. People can't seem to hand me there money. You know how pissed that gets someone?
4. I had to drive my mom's shitty car that hates me
5. I ran into the same corner 4 times at work today
6. Then hit my head on the keyboard corner of the office desk
7. I had a mental/nervous breakdown
8. I have one giant knot of stress in my back
9. I hate my family. None of them can help me to do anything
10. I can't seem to be happy for more than 4 hours
11. I have to write a paper tonight since last night was wasted--no hard feelings--I'm just...nvm
12. I can't seem to keep anyone else happy
13. And I feel worthless because of it
14. I miss my ex like crazy because he could be there for me in these moments
15. And that makes me feel even more miserable missing him--cuz I hate him
16. I can't seem to put a damn piece of paper in a fucking envelope
17. I don't have thursday off like the schedule said
18. Thus not allowing me to see my college counselor about my future transfer plans
19. Thus pushing it back further, past next week ever
20. I'm stressed beyond my limit
21. I'm seriously about to crack on myself, and I'm afraid of that
22. My room is such a mess and it's driving me crazy
23. I didn't get off work until 330
24. I have the worst splitting headache I've had in ages
25. I can't harm myself, cuz I can't cover it up tomorrow...You know how miserable that it?
26. I have class tonight...and I don't want to go
27. If I go to my friend's, I'll break down, and I feel weak breaking down in front of people
28. I've lost the most incredible person I've ever met, and I can't help but feel like it's my fault
29. Because it's always my fault...always
30. I'm feeling trapped inside myself, and I want to get out, but I can't.
31. I feel like I'm under a microscope, being analyzed to make sure I don't fuck up
32. So much of my family had such high expectations for me, like they expect me to skrew up
33. I feel like a car crash, severly placing me near death, in a coma, will be the only thing to solve this
34. Do you NOT see what's wrong with that?
35. If there is a higher power, it hates me...severly.
36. I'm PMSing...if you're not a female, you don't understand how much this worsens things
37. I can't stop crying
38. I miss someone so much, but I can't do anything about it
39. I'm so stubborn, I don't want to ask people to help...and you won't understand why I can't anyways
40. I flat out hate being me. I feel ugly, unattractive, fat, crazy, so stupid, worthless, and undenyably helpless......
41. I can't eat anything. No appetite...and I can't keep it down without reflexing...
1. I had to do this twice
2. I owe $125 in taxes
3. I hate work. I want to quite. People can't seem to hand me there money. You know how pissed that gets someone?
4. I had to drive my mom's shitty car that hates me
5. I ran into the same corner 4 times at work today
6. Then hit my head on the keyboard corner of the office desk
7. I had a mental/nervous breakdown
8. I have one giant knot of stress in my back
9. I hate my family. None of them can help me to do anything
10. I can't seem to be happy for more than 4 hours
11. I have to write a paper tonight since last night was wasted--no hard feelings--I'm just...nvm
12. I can't seem to keep anyone else happy
13. And I feel worthless because of it
14. I miss my ex like crazy because he could be there for me in these moments
15. And that makes me feel even more miserable missing him--cuz I hate him
16. I can't seem to put a damn piece of paper in a fucking envelope
17. I don't have thursday off like the schedule said
18. Thus not allowing me to see my college counselor about my future transfer plans
19. Thus pushing it back further, past next week ever
20. I'm stressed beyond my limit
21. I'm seriously about to crack on myself, and I'm afraid of that
22. My room is such a mess and it's driving me crazy
23. I didn't get off work until 330
24. I have the worst splitting headache I've had in ages
25. I can't harm myself, cuz I can't cover it up tomorrow...You know how miserable that it?
26. I have class tonight...and I don't want to go
27. If I go to my friend's, I'll break down, and I feel weak breaking down in front of people
28. I've lost the most incredible person I've ever met, and I can't help but feel like it's my fault
29. Because it's always my fault...always
30. I'm feeling trapped inside myself, and I want to get out, but I can't.
31. I feel like I'm under a microscope, being analyzed to make sure I don't fuck up
32. So much of my family had such high expectations for me, like they expect me to skrew up
33. I feel like a car crash, severly placing me near death, in a coma, will be the only thing to solve this
34. Do you NOT see what's wrong with that?
35. If there is a higher power, it hates me...severly.
36. I'm PMSing...if you're not a female, you don't understand how much this worsens things
37. I can't stop crying
38. I miss someone so much, but I can't do anything about it
39. I'm so stubborn, I don't want to ask people to help...and you won't understand why I can't anyways
40. I flat out hate being me. I feel ugly, unattractive, fat, crazy, so stupid, worthless, and undenyably helpless......
41. I can't eat anything. No appetite...and I can't keep it down without reflexing...