Re: i miss the fuck out of you....bsoulmateAugust 14 2005, 16:31:10 UTC
i miss the fuck out of you too.....ALL of you. i never thought that we would grow apart, but apparently ryan moving in did more damage than i thought it would. the reason i have not gotten a chance to call or hang out a lot is not because i have spent all summer stuck up ryans ass....on the contrary i havent spent little time at all with him. i worked three days a week this year...living over there for four. it made it hard to do things. i know that things have been hard for you this summer, i would love to call and talk to you about it all and be there for you. i love you like a sister as well....and i have always needed you. its just that i guess where as yall felt like i was pulling away the last part of the year, i felt you and heather pulling away too. it seemed like you were so happy with things going on, and i wasnt gonna impose on that, and heather had a whole new group of people to hang out with that i dont necessarily get along with, and i didnt feel like much of an equation. i mean look at when we went bowling this summer. i called yall wanting to have a three of us get together....and it turned in to like 12 people. i was fine with teliing ryan no he couldnt come, it was just us, but when everyone started talking about coming it made it a moot point whether he came or not. i have always needed you...ALWAYS!! you especially....you have helped and been with me for a lot. you are like blood to me. another reason i havent been able to call or see yall much is this.....you know how my parents are....i have never had much freedom....yall know that. but its like the closer i got to 17 the tighter in they pulled the reigns. im not allowed to do much of anything any more. i have had my lisence since april and still cant drive to cleburne alone...if that tells you anything. i wont be able to call later today...we are fixing to have to go to red oak to see my grandparents and drop off my cousins back at home cause they stayed the night but i will definitely see you tomorrow....by the way are you taking college algebra...if so PLEASE tell me you have it first semester....lol. i love you so much. i really want to fix all this. and i agree with you....i hope that by the end of this year......or even this month would be nice....we can go back to the way it used to be. ♥♥ Love Mona ♥♥
♥♥ Love Mona ♥♥
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