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...just some thoughts...
It was an odd question...one that most people would answer yes to, but one that most people aren't required to prepare for before they've even started dating. "Do you plan on having kids?" My answer was yes...Most people would say yes...but when they say yes they mean in a more "when I meet the right person" kind of way...My yes means that in the next week I will have "my kids"...well half of them at least. Yes...its a bit irrational but...true nonetheless. In a week's time, I will have my future frozen in a plastic bottle. What will be in that plastic bottle; Blue eyes, brown hair, boy, girl, tall, short...? And how am I supposed to find someone who's okay with that? "Hello, how are you? My name is Bryce...how do you feel about insemination?" ...not the best pickup line right? "Yeah...i've already done my part...I'm just looking for an egg..."
...but honestly it overwhelmed me a bit...work, school, cancer...oh, and by the way...time for you to prepare for children even though you're only 22, just started going out on dates, and have yet to HAVE a girlfriend...It makes the idea of dating all the more frightening than it was...now its not just a question of will they love me for who I am...but are they even ready to live with ALL of me...are they ready for trips to Germany for surgeries, constant check-ups, chance of relapses...its not going to be easy...
P.S. On a more humorous note; Thursday morning at 9:30 I have my appointment...my mom (luckily) can't go...so if anyone wants to cum...I mean come with me...(i'm soooooooo sorry...I really just could not resist it...) then we can make a day of it...but i completely understand if you all want to be supportive from a distance :)
It was an odd question...one that most people would answer yes to, but one that most people aren't required to prepare for before they've even started dating. "Do you plan on having kids?" My answer was yes...Most people would say yes...but when they say yes they mean in a more "when I meet the right person" kind of way...My yes means that in the next week I will have "my kids"...well half of them at least. Yes...its a bit irrational but...true nonetheless. In a week's time, I will have my future frozen in a plastic bottle. What will be in that plastic bottle; Blue eyes, brown hair, boy, girl, tall, short...? And how am I supposed to find someone who's okay with that? "Hello, how are you? My name is Bryce...how do you feel about insemination?" ...not the best pickup line right? "Yeah...i've already done my part...I'm just looking for an egg..."
...but honestly it overwhelmed me a bit...work, school, cancer...oh, and by the way...time for you to prepare for children even though you're only 22, just started going out on dates, and have yet to HAVE a girlfriend...It makes the idea of dating all the more frightening than it was...now its not just a question of will they love me for who I am...but are they even ready to live with ALL of me...are they ready for trips to Germany for surgeries, constant check-ups, chance of relapses...its not going to be easy...
P.S. On a more humorous note; Thursday morning at 9:30 I have my appointment...my mom (luckily) can't go...so if anyone wants to cum...I mean come with me...(i'm soooooooo sorry...I really just could not resist it...) then we can make a day of it...but i completely understand if you all want to be supportive from a distance :)