May 01, 2005 16:17
I am fucking blown away. Everytime I look into her eyes I'm just blown away by her, everytime she talks it crushes my heart in, in a way I would not stop for the life of me. My family loves her. Tessa told me she'd kill me with a baseball bat if I blew it, and my mom asked if she could keep her even if I don't. I'm still just gonna play it out, but I keep finding myself just thinking that she might be the one. That there actually is such a thing.
I am just floored by her, even when she isn't around. I was doing a good job at quitting smoking, and now I just need one whenever she leaves, or when she's around. I mean that in a good way. I'm enamored. I don't want to tell her I love her yet, because I could be wrong, I just want to wait longer but we've both slipped up and said it.
. . . she feels exactly the same as me. . .