Confuzzled
hey afternoon yall...just gettin readi fo work...i worked lastnight 5 to 10 it was soo borriinnggg ! Mondays are maddd slowww for us! i had a major headacke to lastnight i couldnt wait to leave! then i got home took tylonal; and took a showa;and went to sleep...today i got readi;showered;did makeup;and i gotta buy ciggs b/4 i go to work tonight 5 to 10 and im OFF TOMMO BABY!=)...then Thurs;fri;sat i work 5 to 10 i neva work Fridays either dis sux! but its PAYDAY BABY!...
im crushin on my friend and this is realli hard bc i have a love of my life ; and he likes me tooo we hungout dis w/e when i got home from work...and he wants to hangout w me dis w/e and his name is Jay and i've known him since last yr...and he just broke up w his ex bc she did him dirty" and cheated on him an they were almost giong to be bout 2 yrs...and hes very hurt by that but was miserable alot like she was a bitch but always nice to me but when he was w her he was not happy at all but now he has a job;pretty soon going to be manager;and hes single now and im not sure what i am w JohnJohn the love of my life more then life itself...and i hungout w JAy this weekend and it was great we got alot in common;hes 22 im 19;...we both work now...and he seems like himself now Jay ... and the onli thing im worried bout which i shouldnt be bc were not daten is he likes this grl Tab but she did some guy alreadi and he likes her but he dont think it will eva be a couple"and he dont mind me askin Q's like did youd o anything w her and shit like dat"but i cant ask him dat all da time and he askes me too...hes very control! meaning very protective"an all he needs again is trust and thats what i've learned in life you need "TRUST"if you dont got TRUST you got nothing at all...it wont work... bc him and me almost had the same thing w our ex's JOhnJohn was honest w me but still went out w a girl and fucked her"and Jays girl just did him dirty all around the same time...and Jay don't wanna see JOhnJohn or he will punch him in the face fo hurtin me like dat and makin me cry for how good i was w Johnjohn im a good girlfriend i dont need to be treated like that and i gotta have trust him again and i cant have mii heart broken again like that...and Jay is always there for me and Jay is my type;like literally my type the ghetto way;hes white of course;hes very protective ova his grl;not controlling but little controlling bc he likes to know where his grl is and i like that in a guy;and JOhnJohn never really was like that w me...and hes 22 he has a job him and i have the same music...and mii mom realli likes him and still loves my JohnJOhn but im so confused right now on what i should do...im not the prettyiest girl in the world but Jay said dis weekend I was pretty"and he likes to control like not control but likes to know wher his grl is JOhnJOhn was neva like dat...Jay has a lot of qualities i like in a guy...
like da one night we was role playin bc im like hey babe"bc Jay and i are friends right now and im like Connie wants me to go hangout w her is it okay?" and he goes whos going to be there? im like me;her and her baby;and parents"he goes how long?Im like maybe an hr or so"and hes like alright call me when you get done"...and he was serious bout it too he told me he will be like dat w me like i gotta ask him permission first bc if he dont like the sound of where i wanna go he will be like no or hes commin w me"...
AND HE just called me today twice=)apologizing to me that he didnt call me afta work bc he was tired didnt get home till like 11:30ish...and hes like yeah im serious i will ask you where your going if your not workin..."
and were not even goin out or Datin were just friends"...im lil worried bout this grl Tab but he did say he lieks her and dont but he dont think it would ever be a relationship and i sohuldnt be worried bc i somewhat have a bf oh i dont know;im just confused bc me and Jay both had the same problem hurting w our ex's...and we've always been friends and now were closer
what SHOULD I DO?!?!?!?!?!?
got work tonight 5 to 10;come home;showa;light candles;relax;hopefully Jay will call me...then tommo not sure prob nothin im OFF TOMMO YAY!
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