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Hey ya'll...I'm home...again...and I'll be gone again soon so what's the point right? I'm gettn' sick of this ya'll...I feel so distant from everyone. I miss be here and just bein' able to say hi to everyone or hang out with them once in a while. Now I'm lucky if I talk to anyone once a month. It seems the only ones I always see are my parents and Kelly. And I'm not sayn' that I don't like seein' them...but I miss seein' everyone else. I shoulda just stayed at my part time job @ Bob's. It might not have been the greatest job in the world, but at least I was around. Now if something happens to a friend I can't do anything. Say someone needs someone to talk to(and everyone knows I was always around for that)...now I can't do anything. I can't just drop by and see people at work any more cause I wanted to see them. It's depressing coming home cause I know I just have to leave again. I hated moving every 7 years, now I'm coming and goin' every few months. And if everything goes right...I'll be outta Boston at the end of November...if not the very beginning of January. And after that I don't know where I'll be. But I can't say anything cause the only one I got to blame for this is me. I dunno...I guess I just thought this was the right thing and it wasn't...or maybe I just thought this would be the easy way out. I don't know, and I really don't care anymore. To see what is beyond your fist is the mark of a true master.