Well Yeah
WEll, as of last night me and Missy aren't together anymore... It really sucks... I love her and I wanna be with her but I just don't know if I can be... She has a lot of growing up she needs to do before she thinks about being in a long term relationship... I feel like shit... I hurt really bad... I am back down at my lowest point again... I don't know if I even wanna try to come back up to reality... I moved down here to start over and to start new... And well I tried but I still had some attachments from home that I couldn't let go of because they were there for me when I needed them... But, I think I finally need to let go of everything for a while and see how things go... I am sorry that I have to do this but I feel that it is in my best interest as of right now... I just need to be alone and be left alone... ANYONE can leave comments in my journal... You have done nothing wrong for me to do this... But, I just need time to myself and I am going to stop letting people in for right now... I need to figure things out for myself for once in my life... I don't wanna have to continue to run to people to try to figure out what the hell I should do or what the hell is going on in my head... I love all of you guys to death... You guys mean a lot to me and you always will... I just hope everyone can be happy for once and not feel like a piece of shit like I do nine time out of ten... I just have a lot to think about right now and a lot to deal with...