Nov 08, 2009 13:36
I've been lying in bed for three hours. I almost said "years", that's how long it's been.
I want to take a bath
I want to go to the Y
I want to go for a walk in the woods
I can't believe my phone is not blowing up with urgent texts and phone messages
I want a hot tub
a weekend getaway
I want weeks where all I have to do evenings is sit at the kitchen table with my friends
my eyes are itchy. Body sore. Got an appointment with the acupuncturist tommorow AM
mostly a gaping yawn of, what do I do when I not in flight?
dreaming of presence
rebuilding
I want a break from doing it all myself
want long, long quiet stretches writing in my house
silence bathing my ears
want to incubate the new
finish the books
clean and reorganize my home
time to breathe
time to write something new til it's perfect
and not to run it all everything.