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ok so here i am chilling at stef's alone... i broke into her house.. lol! Its kinda weird sitting here alone.. i wont get in trouble but the idea of being ehre with no one else is kinda weird.. lol.. i know how she feels now when i leave her alone at my place... its all good tho... were family.. lol.. maybe this is kinda relavant.. being alone in a diferent atmosphere... i recognize it all but its still the same... yet somehow i dont htink its going to be this comfortable when i move lacations... im pretty sure i can do it... but what if they dont like me?.. .what if the dont give me a chance?... what if they think im just anohter bitch comming in to take over?... i odnt want them to think that beucase im not like that.. well piss me off and i can be but im not goingin with that attitude... why am i so nervous?... what could they say to scare me off?... nothing really... im the same as them... ive worked my ass off to get this promotion.. ive been with the company going on 5 years.... im good.. i know the product better than anyone else.. i know the cash... i know the customer and how to deal with them... i know event planning... i know how all the systems work... and amandas awsome.. if shes training me i cant go wrong... maybe im just so comfortable that i odnt want to leave.... im never going to see anyone again... go figure i might actually miss lika... and opal... and kim... oh im gonna miss kim... im not worried about the mar's.. i know ill keep in touch with them not a doubt in my mind... their all ike a family.. we had a good crew... we get in our fights but it was all good in the end becuase we pretty much are family... maybe im just scared beucase im not used to anything good happening to me... this is a major compliment and i cant handle it.. ahh i odnt know what to think... million thoughts that i cant process... do i have to wear a suit... i bette rnot.. i ownt take the job lol.. i ownt let it get in the way oif me going back to school either... ive finally mad ehtis decision.. i gonna g back.. i have to for my own good... ahh i gotta go... so this was nice... didnt accomplish nehting but it was nice