I want a puppy! :(
So this has been a crazy ass week. Wednesday I go out to my car to drive to work to find out I have a flat tire. When the AAA guy gets there he basically tells me my tire was slashed. fun times. so after putting my spare on and going to work, I end up having to buy two new tires since its really not good to just get one new tire. Then yesterday I go out to my car to find a tree has fallen slightly and the branches and debris are all encompassing my car, lol... there was no damage, I just had to climb into the passenger side to get into my car... more fun times lol...
on top of everything else I am trying to decide what I want to do about my living situation. I really want to get out because I don't want to be around all this crap anymore. they are getting into unsavory things that quite frankly scare me, and I don't want to end up arrested because my stupid ass roommates keep their shit in the common area. But on the other hand, I don't want to go through trying to get out of a lease again, I don't want to deal with drama and bullshit that will come with me trying to get out of the lease and I don't want to move again, and I don't want to sign anymore leases. In a dream world FSU would just let me move home and I could rent my parents second house. like I said... dream world.
I'm really just emotionally, mentally, and physically exhausted and I don't even want to deal with any of this crap at all. I just feel really alone and I am over it all, and I am ready to just graduate and leave. I really wish I would have just opted to graduate early... one extra class the last two semesters would have allowed me that, but stupid florida brights going through 4 years kept me here. blahhhhh. I really should just learn to stick with my gut. I knew this was going to turn out this way, I knew I should have just graduated early... I really need to learn to just go with my first instinct. I over analyze everything and worry too much about what others will think and making everyone else happy...not that I would change that I worry about others, it just sucks when its a systematic screwing over of myself.
in better news, I am doing really well in school so far. My first Juvenile Justice test I got a 95.9, my first Violence in America test i got a 95.5, and my first Abnormal Psych class I got a 96.3 :) soooo I am doing really well.. I know my minorites class is going to be HARD AS HELL. so I am hoping to pull off a B in that class... an A would make me the most amazingly happy person ever. but I am seriously doubting that since I have yet to participate, and the tests are the hardest things ever. but we shall see. I need to write some reaction papers for juv, justice class this weekend, hopefully I will get motivated at some point
in other news my phone is being an annoying piece of crap, I haven't been getting calls or texts consistently... sometimes I get them, I never get missed calls...just voicemails, sometimes right away, other times hours or even days later... and same thing with texts, somtimes i don't get them til the next day or 5 hours later... its so freaking annoying. stupid stupid at&t crap.
in other random news, I really really really really want a golden retriever puppy. i know I can't get one while I'm up here because there isn't enough room for a big puppy, not to mention I can't really afford to feed myself, so I'm not about to bring in a puppy... but I have decided when I move home I am going to work on my parents to get me one. if I end up renting their other house (which is looks like I am going to be doing that... the tennant SUCKS) they might be hesitant about it, but they will cave, I feel it. Golden's are my family's weakness. I want one so bad my heart is aching! :( I think a puppy is the only thing that could make me truly happy haha. how can you not be happy when there is a puppy around? i would even take it to obedience class! lol... I'm thinking once I move home I will just beg for one for christmas, I'll start working on them in april and just not give up until they cave haha.
okay well I'm at work now, so I should probably get back to pretending to do something. fun times.
on top of everything else I am trying to decide what I want to do about my living situation. I really want to get out because I don't want to be around all this crap anymore. they are getting into unsavory things that quite frankly scare me, and I don't want to end up arrested because my stupid ass roommates keep their shit in the common area. But on the other hand, I don't want to go through trying to get out of a lease again, I don't want to deal with drama and bullshit that will come with me trying to get out of the lease and I don't want to move again, and I don't want to sign anymore leases. In a dream world FSU would just let me move home and I could rent my parents second house. like I said... dream world.
I'm really just emotionally, mentally, and physically exhausted and I don't even want to deal with any of this crap at all. I just feel really alone and I am over it all, and I am ready to just graduate and leave. I really wish I would have just opted to graduate early... one extra class the last two semesters would have allowed me that, but stupid florida brights going through 4 years kept me here. blahhhhh. I really should just learn to stick with my gut. I knew this was going to turn out this way, I knew I should have just graduated early... I really need to learn to just go with my first instinct. I over analyze everything and worry too much about what others will think and making everyone else happy...not that I would change that I worry about others, it just sucks when its a systematic screwing over of myself.
in better news, I am doing really well in school so far. My first Juvenile Justice test I got a 95.9, my first Violence in America test i got a 95.5, and my first Abnormal Psych class I got a 96.3 :) soooo I am doing really well.. I know my minorites class is going to be HARD AS HELL. so I am hoping to pull off a B in that class... an A would make me the most amazingly happy person ever. but I am seriously doubting that since I have yet to participate, and the tests are the hardest things ever. but we shall see. I need to write some reaction papers for juv, justice class this weekend, hopefully I will get motivated at some point
in other news my phone is being an annoying piece of crap, I haven't been getting calls or texts consistently... sometimes I get them, I never get missed calls...just voicemails, sometimes right away, other times hours or even days later... and same thing with texts, somtimes i don't get them til the next day or 5 hours later... its so freaking annoying. stupid stupid at&t crap.
in other random news, I really really really really want a golden retriever puppy. i know I can't get one while I'm up here because there isn't enough room for a big puppy, not to mention I can't really afford to feed myself, so I'm not about to bring in a puppy... but I have decided when I move home I am going to work on my parents to get me one. if I end up renting their other house (which is looks like I am going to be doing that... the tennant SUCKS) they might be hesitant about it, but they will cave, I feel it. Golden's are my family's weakness. I want one so bad my heart is aching! :( I think a puppy is the only thing that could make me truly happy haha. how can you not be happy when there is a puppy around? i would even take it to obedience class! lol... I'm thinking once I move home I will just beg for one for christmas, I'll start working on them in april and just not give up until they cave haha.
okay well I'm at work now, so I should probably get back to pretending to do something. fun times.