Take time to realize... this all could pass you by... didn't I tell you?
ok so.. I honestly can't remember the last time I updated.. probabaly about a million years ago... basically I'm pretty busy, but I'm basically loving life...for the most part lol
so I'm pretty far into 211 training and its not as bad/hard/scary as I was anticipating...not thats its not any of those things.. just not as bad lol.
Babysitting is seriously the most enriching thing I have done in a long time.. and believe me I never thought I would ever say that... I thought it would be like "oh, damn.. I have to go babysit again" or something... but I mean, I can't even really describe it.. even when the boys are being little bastards (which is like at least once everyday haha) I still thoroughly enjoy myself... these little boys are so ridiculously entertaining and I really enjoy watching them.. I usually watch them about 4 times a week.. and I really love the parents too, I find myself staying late on wednesdays to watch american idol with them haha...It might be kinda weird, but in a way I get to feel like I have a "family" in tallahassee... I obviously know they aren't my kids, but these boys have really made me make up my mind that I definitely want to have kids, provided I am able too, and I used to want girls.. but I am seriously hoping for boys now haha..ok moving on..
school is going pretty well.. minus cog psych, I freaking hate that class.. its boring as hell and the material sucks..but whatever.. I have to go get a grad check for both of my majors before I can register after spring break and I'm annoyed by that.. because I have to go to both of the colleges then to the university center.. and I really don't have time to do that, and I have to find time to do this on monday or tuesday because I register wednesday... ugh...
I cannot even tell you how freaking excited I am for spring break! omg , I cannot wait to go home and do absolutely nothing and hopefully get tan in the process.. also I get to see Autum and her new house!! and Paul, I'm finally gonna hang out with him lol..
oh speaking of Autum, she got engaged last friday and I am so excited for her.. I think she's a bit too young, but knowing her situation and life and everything she is yearss beyond her age. Her and her fiancee just bought their first house and moved in on valentines day and then he proposed on their anniversary at Disney on the ferry, I thought that was cute.. and even cooler, I'm her Maid of Honor! I'm excited about that, I didn't really think I would ever get to be one, so I'm excited =).. of course in true Autum fashion she is going to have a crazy excentric wedding probably october 2008, so we have plenty of time to plan it out haha.. that whole summer I will be home because I will have graduated college... man.. I feel old... but I know I really am young... ugh haha
speaking of age.. only about 30 some odd days till my 21st birthday! I'm really excited about it, the only sad thing is that its on Easter sunday, so I have to go home for it...but I'm going to make my parents take me to bonefish in Ormond, and I think I'm still going to get to go out sat night with some friends.. I think Cyn is gonna be in town for it, and Sarah and her boyfriend, and Caroline will be in town...and today I actually saw that Sarah wrote on Robin's wall about my birthday ahah..so I dunno, I guess Robin will be going out too.. its kinda funny to see someone write about you, but flattering at the same time that they thought about me I guess lol...then the weekend after that is when I'm gonna celebrate in tally.. I think I might be doing a waltz, It was Cyns Idea to do Polka Dots, and thats so me haha, so I think I might do that... Brandon wanted to do Dinosaurs.. as funny as that would be.. I don't think anyone would come haha.. I'm undecided what to do though, I want to go to bullwinkles and the pub and stuff so I might just go out a couple times that weekend .. I don't know.....(side note: cash gifts for bar tabs will be accepted...haha jk jk).. I think I want to do a waltz, but I'm still undecided who all I would invite and stuff, and if I really want that many people to come.. if it will be enough for a waltz etc... I have been pretty disappointed in some people lately, I guess basically I am just learning about true friends yet again.. I don't think I will ever really stop fully trusting people that will inevitably just use me whenever they need something and then not really give a damn about anything else...I don't know.. I am trying really hard to stop making excuses for people... but I still want to believe that I didn't waste my time on people... I don't know, I guess I learn alot when I stop making the effort and it all dissipates around me..It speaks volumes. okay well I'm gonna stop rambling now.
Hope everyone has a great, safe, fun spring break! xoxo