I hate mice. Both computer and animal.
my mouse sucks balls.
so i've seen garden state 3 times. each time i understood it more and more and connected with it more and more and loved it more and more.
i don't write much anymore. i think its because i'm busy and its because i don't know what to say or have much to say for that matter.
i know always talk about life, but i think about it a lot. it really gets me thinking and wondering if i'm in the right place right now in my life. am i happy or whats going on? i dunno. i'm so confused lately. i mean my friends are great, getting to know alan has been a privledge, and my family is just so typical. i'll leave my family at that. they are though. so typical. all they do is gimme shit, but i think a lot of families do that, so i know i ain't alone.
i'm really starting to miss luara and ania i think. they've only been gone for a month, but still have 4 more to go. aww those ladies were my girls. they were my buds and what i like to call "different friends". they were though. there was just something different and unique about them. i can't really pinpoint it, but i loved them both for it. i really do hope they're having a ball in london.
for some weird reason, i'm sad. i know that might not sound weird. but the fact i haven't written in here for a bit, may throw you off. things were getting better and starting to look remotely brighter. but i think i'm still sad deep down. i know what it is, but its worthless to share. i just know i've never been this anxious before. i don't know what anticpate of this coming year. what will it do to me? i really want to know. could i take a better turn for the best or a turn for the worse? are things just gonna fall down the shit hole soon? or what? i hate not knowing. it eats me up inside, but i can never predict things accurately all the time. it doesn't work that way, but sometimes my instincts are correct, and it scares me because some of my instincts are so sad and heartbreaking. please don't break my heart. please love me for me. please give me what you think i deserve. talk to me. communicate with me.
ahhhh! i feel as if i need to meditate or something. clear my head of things and make sure the actions and certain people are good for me right now. i don't know! i don't know what to think. i don't know what to do. hopefully it'll come to me, and i'll know what i deserve and want.
this makes no sense unless you can read my mind or live in my head. i better sleep.
so i've seen garden state 3 times. each time i understood it more and more and connected with it more and more and loved it more and more.
i don't write much anymore. i think its because i'm busy and its because i don't know what to say or have much to say for that matter.
i know always talk about life, but i think about it a lot. it really gets me thinking and wondering if i'm in the right place right now in my life. am i happy or whats going on? i dunno. i'm so confused lately. i mean my friends are great, getting to know alan has been a privledge, and my family is just so typical. i'll leave my family at that. they are though. so typical. all they do is gimme shit, but i think a lot of families do that, so i know i ain't alone.
i'm really starting to miss luara and ania i think. they've only been gone for a month, but still have 4 more to go. aww those ladies were my girls. they were my buds and what i like to call "different friends". they were though. there was just something different and unique about them. i can't really pinpoint it, but i loved them both for it. i really do hope they're having a ball in london.
for some weird reason, i'm sad. i know that might not sound weird. but the fact i haven't written in here for a bit, may throw you off. things were getting better and starting to look remotely brighter. but i think i'm still sad deep down. i know what it is, but its worthless to share. i just know i've never been this anxious before. i don't know what anticpate of this coming year. what will it do to me? i really want to know. could i take a better turn for the best or a turn for the worse? are things just gonna fall down the shit hole soon? or what? i hate not knowing. it eats me up inside, but i can never predict things accurately all the time. it doesn't work that way, but sometimes my instincts are correct, and it scares me because some of my instincts are so sad and heartbreaking. please don't break my heart. please love me for me. please give me what you think i deserve. talk to me. communicate with me.
ahhhh! i feel as if i need to meditate or something. clear my head of things and make sure the actions and certain people are good for me right now. i don't know! i don't know what to think. i don't know what to do. hopefully it'll come to me, and i'll know what i deserve and want.
this makes no sense unless you can read my mind or live in my head. i better sleep.