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mmm, the joys of insomnia
it's ridiculous, before college, i was always early to bed, now, i just don't really sleep. it's terrible.
also, i have the biggest urge to try out for drum corps, i am definitely going to audition for colts in january, but i am deciding between bluecoats and phantom regiment, and i'm not sure i can try out for EITHER of those considering i don't even have a stupid marching euphonium to use at their auditions. i think i may be leaning toward phantom, but there is someone who i want to talk to who did bluecoats but i've never talked to him before and blahhh idk. i hate not knowing what the hell i am doing, all i know is next summer, i want to be marching corps. and i don't have an instrument to play for them. grr, i need to figure this out!
on another note, guys suck, what's new. actually, i should say that, there are 2 guys here that don't like each other and they're in some weird like, i don't even know. one of them is interested in me (he marched cavaliers), the other one (who marched phantom.. ha..) apparently wants to hook up with me. finally, there is one who i have this weird obsession with (who marches in bluecoats) yet i don't talk to him. of course the one that i really want to know i don't talk to. even though we BOTH know we want to hook up/talk to each other. actually, he asked me a question yesterday. we were learning the thriller dance for saturday's game (yes, we're doing THRILLER) and he was right in front of me and asked how exactly we were supposed to do a dance move. i showed him, and that was all. but i died a little bit inside. ugh, there is just something about him, i don't even know. i feel like i'm just staring from afar, like a little kid who has a crush on a boy but doesn't talk to them. which is ridiculous, i'm in college, what the hell. though the cavalier (i'll just call them by their drum corps name) is so so nice! he's too shy to talk to me in person though, i smiled and said hi to him after rehearsal yesterday (which i do to everyone?) and he sent me a text today saying that i made his night last night because of that... interesting.
oy oy oy, i don't think boys (or me) will ever grow up.
it's ridiculous, before college, i was always early to bed, now, i just don't really sleep. it's terrible.
also, i have the biggest urge to try out for drum corps, i am definitely going to audition for colts in january, but i am deciding between bluecoats and phantom regiment, and i'm not sure i can try out for EITHER of those considering i don't even have a stupid marching euphonium to use at their auditions. i think i may be leaning toward phantom, but there is someone who i want to talk to who did bluecoats but i've never talked to him before and blahhh idk. i hate not knowing what the hell i am doing, all i know is next summer, i want to be marching corps. and i don't have an instrument to play for them. grr, i need to figure this out!
on another note, guys suck, what's new. actually, i should say that, there are 2 guys here that don't like each other and they're in some weird like, i don't even know. one of them is interested in me (he marched cavaliers), the other one (who marched phantom.. ha..) apparently wants to hook up with me. finally, there is one who i have this weird obsession with (who marches in bluecoats) yet i don't talk to him. of course the one that i really want to know i don't talk to. even though we BOTH know we want to hook up/talk to each other. actually, he asked me a question yesterday. we were learning the thriller dance for saturday's game (yes, we're doing THRILLER) and he was right in front of me and asked how exactly we were supposed to do a dance move. i showed him, and that was all. but i died a little bit inside. ugh, there is just something about him, i don't even know. i feel like i'm just staring from afar, like a little kid who has a crush on a boy but doesn't talk to them. which is ridiculous, i'm in college, what the hell. though the cavalier (i'll just call them by their drum corps name) is so so nice! he's too shy to talk to me in person though, i smiled and said hi to him after rehearsal yesterday (which i do to everyone?) and he sent me a text today saying that i made his night last night because of that... interesting.
oy oy oy, i don't think boys (or me) will ever grow up.