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i am watching sweet home alabama right now and i am crying. i have been sad again, for no apparent reason. i just can't get motivated to do anything. the past few days have just been me bumming around, not really wanting to do anything. i've been sleeping all day, napping, and not being able to sleep at night. i physically feel down, i haven't been hungry, so i haven't been eating. i feel like crying constantly, and i just don't feel like anything can make me feel better. a lot of people want to run away, i want to stay home. i love my house, my room. i'm getting nervous for going away next year. right now i'm in someone else's house, i'm house-sitting. i feel sad, i just want to go home, be in my own room. i feel so much better when i'm home. i love my own doggy, not someone else's. i like being the youngest, not being responsible for other kids and his friends. i have crushes, as usual. i'm confused, nervous about college and how ridiculous my schedule is next year. i just want to curl up in the ball i always want to curl up in and stay home in my room. or i just want to have a mommy-daughter night and watch movies with my mom. this sucks this sucks this sucks, i'm 18 and i'm so dependent on my home and my mommy. am i ready to grow up? i feel like i'm not. i feel like a part of me just likes being the baby i am.