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[bronwenb]

we had our house party last night, i was so freaking hammered, this chick yanna was there and we kind of like eachother. anyways we flirted and what not and danced and then she ended up crashing in my bed. we didnt do anything because we both have boyfriends but it was nice anyways. marcus is still gone :( and i miss him. I dont even know when im going to see him when he gets back due to work but he promised my a carrige ride. I talked to tristan a couple days ago and its nice to know that i can have his friendship, like, it means so much to me. Anyways tonight i was outside having a smoke by the curb talking on the phone to marcus and like three cars full of guys drove up blasting music and before i know it, another house party breaks loose. i ponded again with david we're like amazing together because hes hilarious and im hilarious when im drunk and then i met this dude matt and me and marc bonded once again (last night we were fooz ball partners) and it was just good times. i looove my room mates. I looove my job. I got uppsed a dollar because im a good worker apparently according to bob and everyone loves me. so thats sweet. tomorrow me and marie are having a dance party to jhonny cash because we are the only ones working and its going to be a party. today we spent about an hour figuring out which beads in the store would glow under black light. i have lost too much weight due to poorness, im like under 120 again. minus muscle because im lazy and when i dont work i just dance and go out and drink cuz im sexy like that. i miss marcus and our conversations that last all night and telling him stories and reading him things he enourages me to write and relaxing just relaxing and not caring about anything
its hard though. i find myself thinking about the past sometimes. like... happy days with tristan in high school, liz lambert, amberito, lo and channy. 
moving forward always seemed so hard when in reality its so easy once u realize the memories arent going anywhere