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i'm.. i don't know what i am. tired. sad. happy. nothing. i feel so blank, you know? ugh. worthless pile of scum. life is so fustrating.
then bang! bang!. you're dead.
we are living only to die. and dying only to live.
there was a song about htat. only i forgot what it was called. it's been so long.
sigh. i never have anything to talk abouty anymore. i can't get the words to come out straight. there are people i am trying to please, people who i feel awkward around.. people who i love who are angry... people leaving my life forever. peopel leaving temporarily. people being psychotic. make it stop. just make everything stop, please.
i don't like people seeing hte real me. it makes me feel insecure and too open. i like having a shell over me. it's much more safer taht way. but keepign everything in is about to make me explode. i jsutk now i am going to explode. any day now...
and someone ought to tell him someone ought to have told him. don't drink and drive.
it's not good for you. hai.
i am always nervous all the time. watching my back. the backs of others. always watching backs. always. enough to forget about what's before me.. making me bump into thigns i would rather not bump into.. is any of this makin sense to you? is it?
i don't think so. i don't think anyone can understand what i'm saying. becuase i am slowly going insane! heed my words the next time you speaketh to me i will be someone you would hardly remember me as.
things are too stressful. eveyrhting. and then nothing. nothng at all. i am just amking them stressful. please stop. stop it now. stop everyhtign. time. stop. love. stop. help. stop. work. stop.
life. stop.
liek i said. someone ought to have told him.
don't drink and drive.
then bang! bang!. you're dead.
we are living only to die. and dying only to live.
there was a song about htat. only i forgot what it was called. it's been so long.
sigh. i never have anything to talk abouty anymore. i can't get the words to come out straight. there are people i am trying to please, people who i feel awkward around.. people who i love who are angry... people leaving my life forever. peopel leaving temporarily. people being psychotic. make it stop. just make everything stop, please.
i don't like people seeing hte real me. it makes me feel insecure and too open. i like having a shell over me. it's much more safer taht way. but keepign everything in is about to make me explode. i jsutk now i am going to explode. any day now...
and someone ought to tell him someone ought to have told him. don't drink and drive.
it's not good for you. hai.
i am always nervous all the time. watching my back. the backs of others. always watching backs. always. enough to forget about what's before me.. making me bump into thigns i would rather not bump into.. is any of this makin sense to you? is it?
i don't think so. i don't think anyone can understand what i'm saying. becuase i am slowly going insane! heed my words the next time you speaketh to me i will be someone you would hardly remember me as.
things are too stressful. eveyrhting. and then nothing. nothng at all. i am just amking them stressful. please stop. stop it now. stop everyhtign. time. stop. love. stop. help. stop. work. stop.
life. stop.
liek i said. someone ought to have told him.
don't drink and drive.