im lost in all of the words that would of made you stay..

[brokenxr0se]

i feel like shit. it sucks when someone who could give you the most positive of feelings is giving you the most painful ones. and it's not even just the hurt, but how i cant even picture myself with anyone else. blah. its like i wish i died the last time we were together just so i wouldnt have to live like this.withouthim. its so hard to let go when the smallest things remind me of him, and knowing i wont get him back, and having to deal with thatdfhgdh i just dont know how he is such an asshole about everything. how can he just throw everything away. how we used to understand each other so good. when you know someone so well and they have such a big impact on your life, of course you cant just go on without them, totally out of your life forever. i dont know how he does it. how can he just say he doesnt love me anymore so easily, like its nothing. and regardless of everything hes done i still always wanna be there for him, even if hes not always there for me...its so fucking sad how i still care about him when he couldnt give a shit. and just remembering how we kissed and longing so much for that one more time. it just fuckign kills me.

...just kidding?