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i'm sitting here in school.. blaming myself because i didnt have the courage to pull the trigger. i dont care who readds this anymore.. i dont care who hates me who loves me who likes me, i dont care. last night was the worst night of my life. it wouldnt of happened the way it did if i just kept my mouth shut. the pain hurt so bad last night that i tried to "kill" myself because i didnt want to lose Kat as a friend, shes the only one i have to talk to, then Kelly breaks up with her bf and its my fault. my life couldnt get any worse, and if it does, i wont be able to handle it, i already cant handle it now. i'm just so sickk of people saying their my friend then leaving me with nothing but more pieces to my heart on the floor. i dont think i can say this enough to even make it be even a little better.. but i'm sorry Kat, i ruined everything. i was lucky i found you and now.. i lost you. psh, whats the use, shes probobly not readingg this anyway. i'm nothing anymore without her though