Ongoing
Lexapro saw me with some pretty solid side effects with my breathing (strange exhaustion/person standing on my chest feeling; not cool), even on such a low dose. So after three doses I quit it, went through withdrawal, and am now here.
Problem is it seems I can't NOT worry about stuff. The dizziness is still ongoing, but seems to be better. In fact, up until tonight it hadn't been much of an issue at all because I'd been very focused on either my breathing (where my throat feels blocked or constricted for no good reason) or my heart (which I think beats oddly/may have a circulation issue).
It's a mess. And the worst thing is I can't seem to not focus on it, can't let go. It's like... always worrying your roast is burning in the oven, even when you get brief glimpses which tell you it's probably fine, or when you're away from the oven completely. Or even when there's no roast! My emotional state as a result is a wreck, even though on a technical level I've got a lot going. It's making me depressed and it's very difficult to manage.
Talking with the psych and the shrink on Monday and Tuesday respectively. BF's coming up for the week starting Saturday. Maybe that'll all help. Until then I'm a victim to my own whims.
Oh, and for the love of god go play Braid. It's one of the most brilliant pieces of software I've played in the last 10 years. It could just as easily have been made in flash, but I think it feels better for being on the 360.
Problem is it seems I can't NOT worry about stuff. The dizziness is still ongoing, but seems to be better. In fact, up until tonight it hadn't been much of an issue at all because I'd been very focused on either my breathing (where my throat feels blocked or constricted for no good reason) or my heart (which I think beats oddly/may have a circulation issue).
It's a mess. And the worst thing is I can't seem to not focus on it, can't let go. It's like... always worrying your roast is burning in the oven, even when you get brief glimpses which tell you it's probably fine, or when you're away from the oven completely. Or even when there's no roast! My emotional state as a result is a wreck, even though on a technical level I've got a lot going. It's making me depressed and it's very difficult to manage.
Talking with the psych and the shrink on Monday and Tuesday respectively. BF's coming up for the week starting Saturday. Maybe that'll all help. Until then I'm a victim to my own whims.
Oh, and for the love of god go play Braid. It's one of the most brilliant pieces of software I've played in the last 10 years. It could just as easily have been made in flash, but I think it feels better for being on the 360.