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I'm not happy about a lot of things in this world Loyal Readers. Yet, for the first time in quite a while I'm happy with me. And when me and I are on the same page, great things happen.
I miss you. And you too. And you're fun. And I wanna get to know you more. And everything will be ok for you. I love a couple of you. And a couple I'd love to care about more one day. I wish things where different. I wish I wasn't always the same. I wish we were closer like before when we were farther apart.
I wish for a lot of things. Some of these I have control over. Some I do not. Some I may or may not have the ability to influence.
It's all vague, meaningful meaninglessness. And that sucks man. But I'm not gonna expound on it here. My New Years Resolution is to be more open. Maybe bein' open is beggin' yourself to be hurt, but maybe there's the slight chance that you can be healed. And at the very least, humored. I've always traveled the path of least resistance and consistency taken sharp turns onto easy street. Maybe it's time to let people in. Strangers.
I'm gonna fuckin' win. I will be happy. Even if it takes 100 years and I have to try 400 billion times. I'll figure it out. Sometimes though, I just wish I could jump back in time and take what was and bring it here to what is. One day friends. I always concern myself with tomorrow's problems at a later date and time.
Sore-ree this is all so vague and what have you. If you think this is about you it probably is this time. I just don't feel like expressin' myself wholeheartedly in some random stream of conscious thoughts anymore ya know? I want REAL!
I just want something real that sticks. That's it. Just one real life honest to God existence. That's my highest aim.
Night El-Ars. Sore-ree my LJ's gone to hell as of late. I promise I'll do a belated 2010 entry sometime. Haha it may be fuckin' March, but I'll do it. Just now's not the time.
Have nice lives.
I miss you. And you too. And you're fun. And I wanna get to know you more. And everything will be ok for you. I love a couple of you. And a couple I'd love to care about more one day. I wish things where different. I wish I wasn't always the same. I wish we were closer like before when we were farther apart.
I wish for a lot of things. Some of these I have control over. Some I do not. Some I may or may not have the ability to influence.
It's all vague, meaningful meaninglessness. And that sucks man. But I'm not gonna expound on it here. My New Years Resolution is to be more open. Maybe bein' open is beggin' yourself to be hurt, but maybe there's the slight chance that you can be healed. And at the very least, humored. I've always traveled the path of least resistance and consistency taken sharp turns onto easy street. Maybe it's time to let people in. Strangers.
I'm gonna fuckin' win. I will be happy. Even if it takes 100 years and I have to try 400 billion times. I'll figure it out. Sometimes though, I just wish I could jump back in time and take what was and bring it here to what is. One day friends. I always concern myself with tomorrow's problems at a later date and time.
Sore-ree this is all so vague and what have you. If you think this is about you it probably is this time. I just don't feel like expressin' myself wholeheartedly in some random stream of conscious thoughts anymore ya know? I want REAL!
I just want something real that sticks. That's it. Just one real life honest to God existence. That's my highest aim.
Night El-Ars. Sore-ree my LJ's gone to hell as of late. I promise I'll do a belated 2010 entry sometime. Haha it may be fuckin' March, but I'll do it. Just now's not the time.
Have nice lives.