in need
i dont know what i want to say......... i went to two parties this weekend n both times i felt anti-social... maybe i should just give hanging with ppl. i didnt think it was possible but i feel the way i felt in ashford. maybe thats another reason i've been doing these things lately. as i sit here right now..... i tell myself i can last without nething... but i know i feel like i cant. it would be easier if i felt like god loves me but jus like in ashford .. i feel he hates me. i need something....... but to make sure i dont do nething....im gonna take a walk n see where i end up. tty guys l8er i guess.