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~Two days in a row after nearly a year being gone. Either I've got way too much time on my hands right now or this is just intriguing me enough. The reason for my online journal and even my travel journal isn't for others to read. It's for me to place my thoughts for future reference. Journaling seems to be a tool for me to keep track of what happened and when. Naturally there are downsides to writing online. Even though the possibility of anyone remotely connected to me reading this is slim, I still write rather ambiguously. Both because of the ever so slight chance someone might stumble upon this but also the nature of what is being written about. None of it really has the potential to harm anyone though even with this it seems smart of me to either change the information slightly or choose different names or omit certain details. Most recently my current girlfriend was attempting to elicit information regarding this journal after I mentioned it. Only after she realized that her attempts were falling on deaf ears did she forgo asking me questions on it. Despite her resourcefulness it is my opinion that any tries in finding this site will be in vain. Not only is my name here a pseudonym but the email address in which this account is registered is not one that most people are familiar with in regards to me. We had a short discussion afterwards in which she asked why I had a journal online where the possibility exists for someone to read it yet I won't tell anyone where it is. Her curiosity into what it is that I write about or my frame of mind about certain subjects is flattering although somewhat forceful. It's as if just because she want's to read it and understand me "better" through that process she is unwilling to accept that when it comes to my journal I won't willingly give it up. Her rationale is understandable... why post a journal openly when no one you know really has a good chance of reading it. What doesn't get here is that this site wasn't created for others to read. It was a place for me to vent in which only a few people have either found or were privy to. If memory serves correctly the last time girls were open allowed to read my journal it turned into a cat fight on my site. What the hell is with that. Now, that isn't to suggest my girlfriend would do the same. It's just the nature of people. They wanted to argue in order to gain dominance over the other. Amanda wants a better insight into me.
~Haven't had a job since coming home. It is concerning for me that I've not worked but being in school is almost like having a steady job. My thoughts keep wandering to a possible part time job somewhere near by but that hasn't quiet panned out yet. College is paid for as well as a bit of extra money from that endeavor. The time between classes seems to be something of a drain on me. My lifestyle thrives on always having something to focus on and accomplish.
~Haven't had a job since coming home. It is concerning for me that I've not worked but being in school is almost like having a steady job. My thoughts keep wandering to a possible part time job somewhere near by but that hasn't quiet panned out yet. College is paid for as well as a bit of extra money from that endeavor. The time between classes seems to be something of a drain on me. My lifestyle thrives on always having something to focus on and accomplish.