Lack of Patience

[brokenme]

When I told you that I require attention, this is what I was talking about. Since I see no other reasonable way to talk to you, this is how it's going down. I can slowly see myself drifting away from you, that's what it's coming down to. I am talking to ex-lovers more than I see you on-line (and idle). It's frustrating. I want to be with you so badly, but our lives are so different. Maybe this isn't the right time for us? Maybe not, maybe it can work! I am annoyed and frustrated by my lack of patience now more than ever. I try to call, and get your voice-mail every time. I know you don't check it, so I never leave a message. The only thing I am willing to do is send text messages, and you won't get them until 2:30pm the following day. I'd say that calling your house at 10:30pm is unreasonable, even though I could. That's how I loose my already sparse patience. And then I have to wait for your parents to deem me worthy of spending a day with you on the weekend. I've never had to deal with someone's parents as much as I have for you. You need permission to breath it seems.

I know it's not your fault. I know I have it great! Maybe I'm taking this for granted. I'm sorry. I want something to look forward to, something I know I won't have to wait so long for! Possibly even something more readily available. And now you can't say you'd never make me cry. In the end, it's not over until it's over, and I still have much to learn.

My major flaws:
- Lack of patience
- Not reading (I tend to skim)
- Not liking many foods
- A.D.H.D.
- Being loud
- Loving you.