the change
well it been about a week or so..im glad i get to write some crap down.this past thursday i was addmitted into the hospital to have a "special precideur" done on my head...they stuck a tube through my "groin" that went all the way to my neck...then they shot through some iodine to my brain three different times and it was kinda painfull..but they were keepiong my all doped up through this process and after the treatment i had a fucked up headache so they fed me vicodine...that was prtty cool..i stayed in the hospital in bed for 6 hours and i wasnt aloud to move.i did not like this but they sent me home with some more vicodine.ive been stuck inside for the past three day and started to develope something like cabin fever and simply had to get the fuck up and go whether it was raining or not.im so damn glad the weather is turning cold...hopfully it will stay cold like its supposed to.this thursday i get to go through another "proceduer".a spinal tap...joy,joy,joy!!!!hopefully with what they did last thursday and the spinal tap the will be able to telll me what the fuck is wrong with me and treat the problem.i just wanna live like i used to...normaly...not worry if something fucked up is gonna happen any moment.on an somewhat upsidde i will be getting a temporary job as a bell ringer at the salvation army...its a sucky job but it only last 5 1/2 weeks and ill bee making a total of like 900$...thats christmas money so i can actually buy my grandma something nice for once...ill be hooking myself up as well.and at last,and for some reason its always important to me,becka wrote me back for once...she didnt say much but it was still kinda compforting to see that she hasnt forgot me...she said love you...thats pretty cool...i just wish i could see her and cammeron.i miss them.i miss alot of shit...i would give her a big hug...:sigh:well ive wrote enough i suppose...i imagine next time i write in here ill have some good or bad news about my little problem...im going now