find yourself.

[brokendreeams]

when does life stop being such an awkward time? when we were young, we were awkward, we were growing, learning, finding our fingers & toes & then finding our minds. we grew a little older & into our teen years, we thought that it couldn't get much worse. we were awkward in our bodies, our language, we tried to find where our hearts were set at. always trying to find something. & now look at the age we are now, 20, 21, 22... i still feel like i'm in that awkward part of life. i'm not sure what i'm doing yet. some people feel like it's time to settle down already, some people feel like it's what they should be doing but can't figure out how, some already did years ago, some of us, like me, just float along, take what the day gives them & know that somewhere along the path, it will happen. things will settle for me & i will know just exactly who i am & what i want & where i want to be. i will know my purpose & i will belong somewhere & to someone. i just don't know when this happends. when will things stop feeling strange? when am i going to be able to completely free my soul? when can i live the way i've been seeing in my head since i was a little girl? when will i meet my own family? when will i be able to give my life advice to my young ones? this awkward stage feels like it's lasted my entire life thus far. i don't feel as though it's my time or that i'm ready to quite "settle down". i am still so young. i still have so much time out there ahead of me to do wild things & make crazy memories with new & old friends & family & people along the way.
everyone's so confused, everyone's so in the middle, we're young, we're old, we're losing time, we're gaining time. we're all awkward, we just need to find our hearts, our souls & let them free to roam.