Arguing inside my head
My body says go to bed, and my head says no. I could pass out right now, but something inside me is not letting me do so.
The lazy, unmotivated part of my brain needs to be cut out, or shut off somehow. All I want to do is get everything done and clean, and to be skinny. Good god! I look at pictures of myself and literally want to commit suicide. Fuck that. Fuck me. I feel so gross.
I need to:
Eat better
Work out more
Get to work on time
Go to sleep on time
Get things done when they need to be done.
STOP BEING SO GOD DAMN LAZY!
The depression makes you want to not do anything at all. I just need to get myself going. *sigh*
New hair color tomorrow, I'm pretty excited.
♥
The lazy, unmotivated part of my brain needs to be cut out, or shut off somehow. All I want to do is get everything done and clean, and to be skinny. Good god! I look at pictures of myself and literally want to commit suicide. Fuck that. Fuck me. I feel so gross.
I need to:
Eat better
Work out more
Get to work on time
Go to sleep on time
Get things done when they need to be done.
STOP BEING SO GOD DAMN LAZY!
The depression makes you want to not do anything at all. I just need to get myself going. *sigh*
New hair color tomorrow, I'm pretty excited.
♥