My Thoughts...
8 days until the day I fall apart... As the day looms closer and closer I feel a sudden dispare enveloping me and there's nothing I can do...absolutely nothing.... The bad thing is, my friends dont even realize anything is wrong, but it's ok...they're only human and are too wrapped up in their own lives to realize a difference in me...but i love them anyways... I pray to god i never fail to realize when something is wrong... b/c I never want them to feel the way I do right now, & so far...i've been pretty good at realizing their signs....but like I said... I still love them anyways...
Here is a quote from a book I read today... it may sum up a few things clearly.......
"It is useles for me to describe to you how terrible Violet, Klaus, and even Sunny felt in the time that followed. If you have ever lost someone who is very important to you, then you already know how it feels, and if you haven't, you cannot possibly imagine it." Lemony Snicket's "The Bad Beginning"
I feel compelled toward these kids b/c i have had my house burn down before and lost everything...I have also lost a parent..but not both...both has to be much harder...
Not only are the emotions of losing a parent weighing down on me...the stress of the teachers pushing their last tests on us & finals being next week ontop of losing my dad...isnt helping... dunno... 5 years and it still bothers me like it happened y-day....
I miss someone really bad also...I miss him as my best friend and constant companion... but that doesnt really matter does it really? *sighs*....
Here is a quote from a book I read today... it may sum up a few things clearly.......
"It is useles for me to describe to you how terrible Violet, Klaus, and even Sunny felt in the time that followed. If you have ever lost someone who is very important to you, then you already know how it feels, and if you haven't, you cannot possibly imagine it." Lemony Snicket's "The Bad Beginning"
I feel compelled toward these kids b/c i have had my house burn down before and lost everything...I have also lost a parent..but not both...both has to be much harder...
Not only are the emotions of losing a parent weighing down on me...the stress of the teachers pushing their last tests on us & finals being next week ontop of losing my dad...isnt helping... dunno... 5 years and it still bothers me like it happened y-day....
I miss someone really bad also...I miss him as my best friend and constant companion... but that doesnt really matter does it really? *sighs*....