Maintaining Chaotic Order!
As I sit here studying my bones, my mind keeps sliping back to something that was said in class. I'm not sure who said it, only that it was said, and it caught my attention.
The statement was made that "Religion helps us maintain a chaotic order". When this person, whoever they maybe, said this it really started my mind to thinking. What else helps us maintain a chaotic order, and why hadn't I ever thought of it in that way before? Life is chaos.... no matter who you are it is chaos. The chaos is measured in different measurements for people. For example, I may can hold more stress than the next person without breaking, but with the right stressor I can break in an instant. Whereas someone else wouldn't have that problem. For some reason unknown to me, big issues or problems whatever you may call them... the Bigger the issue the longer it takes for me to break. The smaller the issue, the quicker I break. I don't understand this, but this is the way it is..... Utter Chaos... Life is maintaining a chaotic order.... wow what a wonderful concept.
Also, it was said that "people need stories more than they need bread and water". Yes I know you're thinking, now she's done it... she's gone off the deep end. But really think about it. What is your whole life? It's your story... it's the story that you write. What is the Bible? It is a book filled with stories that teach us about God and being a Christian. or whatever else your religion may be..... Think of your favorite TV show. What is that show? It's a story someone has created. What would you do if that "story" didn't come on TV. You'd be bored right? What do most Americans do while they eat dinner? Instead of cutting the tv off, they watch some "story" and the family discusses the "story" on "TV" instead of their OWN stories... yet another wonderful concept right?... Why didnt I think of that?
Before you commit me to the crazy home, I will tell you this has been a stressing week for me already, and it has barely begun. I've always known how precious your time was here. I learned that very early on in my life. But for some reason, it slaps me in the face every once in a while. People, one person in particular, are fixing to be leaving me to start a new part in their life. Some people have already left, including a father figure. (Yes, I said it. I accepted someone into my heart as a father figure.) Do I fit in there, or do they leave & say... Good-bye as if they were dead to me? Also, school is starting to take a toll on me. Why? I dunno. Im the calm one about school. Im always studying weeks before the test. I never miss a beat, but I am now. I dunno... Also, old illnesses are coming back into play saying remember me? & laughing in my face because they know there's nothing I can do except suffer through it & try not to let anyone else see the pain. But tadah this is me, this is my story. My story is full of pain, of sadness, of sickness, of death, but i also have a few times of happines and enjoyment..... what's your story? do you enjoy it? or do u hate it?
-Luv to all,
Lace
The statement was made that "Religion helps us maintain a chaotic order". When this person, whoever they maybe, said this it really started my mind to thinking. What else helps us maintain a chaotic order, and why hadn't I ever thought of it in that way before? Life is chaos.... no matter who you are it is chaos. The chaos is measured in different measurements for people. For example, I may can hold more stress than the next person without breaking, but with the right stressor I can break in an instant. Whereas someone else wouldn't have that problem. For some reason unknown to me, big issues or problems whatever you may call them... the Bigger the issue the longer it takes for me to break. The smaller the issue, the quicker I break. I don't understand this, but this is the way it is..... Utter Chaos... Life is maintaining a chaotic order.... wow what a wonderful concept.
Also, it was said that "people need stories more than they need bread and water". Yes I know you're thinking, now she's done it... she's gone off the deep end. But really think about it. What is your whole life? It's your story... it's the story that you write. What is the Bible? It is a book filled with stories that teach us about God and being a Christian. or whatever else your religion may be..... Think of your favorite TV show. What is that show? It's a story someone has created. What would you do if that "story" didn't come on TV. You'd be bored right? What do most Americans do while they eat dinner? Instead of cutting the tv off, they watch some "story" and the family discusses the "story" on "TV" instead of their OWN stories... yet another wonderful concept right?... Why didnt I think of that?
Before you commit me to the crazy home, I will tell you this has been a stressing week for me already, and it has barely begun. I've always known how precious your time was here. I learned that very early on in my life. But for some reason, it slaps me in the face every once in a while. People, one person in particular, are fixing to be leaving me to start a new part in their life. Some people have already left, including a father figure. (Yes, I said it. I accepted someone into my heart as a father figure.) Do I fit in there, or do they leave & say... Good-bye as if they were dead to me? Also, school is starting to take a toll on me. Why? I dunno. Im the calm one about school. Im always studying weeks before the test. I never miss a beat, but I am now. I dunno... Also, old illnesses are coming back into play saying remember me? & laughing in my face because they know there's nothing I can do except suffer through it & try not to let anyone else see the pain. But tadah this is me, this is my story. My story is full of pain, of sadness, of sickness, of death, but i also have a few times of happines and enjoyment..... what's your story? do you enjoy it? or do u hate it?
-Luv to all,
Lace