Gahhhhhh......
Friday.......yep, on friday I'm going to the doctors, I've had enough. My sleeping still sucks but I can't care anymore, I've given up on the dream of being able to sleep well on a regular basis. Instead I'm just going to get him to prescribe me some pretty powerful painkillers, I'm talking serious shit here so I can get through a day with wanting to just fall on the ground in pain from standing up. Chiropratic does nothing for me anymore, and I don't have the time to stick around and try accupuncture, so drugs it is, yay! My headaches and back pain is getting worse and worse, I just want to be pain free for a little while, just long enough to get through the day, then I can go back to having pain, it'll keep my threshold up now that I don't cut, I need to keep myself from getting weak again.
What else, well I get to see my Sian again in a little over two weeks, so hopefully it won't be long after that before I get it done, I can't wait, I just hope they can do it. I need to get around to finding out where the place is first and then going to get a quote, should be $450 or so maybe. Still, I can't wait, it'll be quite an experience. And after that of course I will return and hopefully then it won't be too much longer before my traineeship starts, I know it won't pay much but it'll get my mind working and I can always find other sources of income, like becoming a whore.....nah, no-one up there could afford me *wink*.
Anywho, I'm going to have shower and feel clean once more, sooo hungry, what will I eat tonight? I haven't been eating well at all for the past couple of weeks, like having one meal a day, not good at all. Hmmm, I don't know, perhaps I'll get something from the corner shop, or I'll just eat nothing again.
What else, well I get to see my Sian again in a little over two weeks, so hopefully it won't be long after that before I get it done, I can't wait, I just hope they can do it. I need to get around to finding out where the place is first and then going to get a quote, should be $450 or so maybe. Still, I can't wait, it'll be quite an experience. And after that of course I will return and hopefully then it won't be too much longer before my traineeship starts, I know it won't pay much but it'll get my mind working and I can always find other sources of income, like becoming a whore.....nah, no-one up there could afford me *wink*.
Anywho, I'm going to have shower and feel clean once more, sooo hungry, what will I eat tonight? I haven't been eating well at all for the past couple of weeks, like having one meal a day, not good at all. Hmmm, I don't know, perhaps I'll get something from the corner shop, or I'll just eat nothing again.