What is going on?
My question lately..
I don't understand whats going on with everyone that I know lately..It seems like everyone is losing grasp on happiness or life. My mom is slowly spiraling downward and I'm really worried for her. She went to the Dr to get anxiety meds the other day and she's super stick skinny. She told me her and Bill were back together but then when I go over there the other night to get something, she has some landscaping guy named James over..I'm scared for her because I know bill and I know that he has been lead to believe that he's the only one and when he finds out that he's not, shit will hit the fan and I'm terrified of what he'll do. Because he is a crazy permafried mother fucker. He's flipped out on me for talking on the phone too loud..I tried to warn her but she doesn't listen. She won't talk to me about anything, just says the usual, "I'm an adult, I can handle myself and I'll be fine."
Maybe I just can't accept that my family is falling to pieces..I always used to say, "Family is all you truly have in this world.." but now I feel like I don't have that. My mom is losing herself my dad rarely calls me and when I call him he just has this attitude with me like "why the fuck are you calling?" and I never hear from my sister or step mom. All I have right now is mike. I used to think I had his family too but lately they've been treating me like shit too. I think I'm just destined to be kicked around my whole life, that's my role. Because even when I stand up for myself, I get knocked back down. I want my life back...a life back...I don't want to lose everything and I feel like thats whats happening..
Maybe I just don't belong anywhere or deserve love from anyone...
I don't understand whats going on with everyone that I know lately..It seems like everyone is losing grasp on happiness or life. My mom is slowly spiraling downward and I'm really worried for her. She went to the Dr to get anxiety meds the other day and she's super stick skinny. She told me her and Bill were back together but then when I go over there the other night to get something, she has some landscaping guy named James over..I'm scared for her because I know bill and I know that he has been lead to believe that he's the only one and when he finds out that he's not, shit will hit the fan and I'm terrified of what he'll do. Because he is a crazy permafried mother fucker. He's flipped out on me for talking on the phone too loud..I tried to warn her but she doesn't listen. She won't talk to me about anything, just says the usual, "I'm an adult, I can handle myself and I'll be fine."
Maybe I just can't accept that my family is falling to pieces..I always used to say, "Family is all you truly have in this world.." but now I feel like I don't have that. My mom is losing herself my dad rarely calls me and when I call him he just has this attitude with me like "why the fuck are you calling?" and I never hear from my sister or step mom. All I have right now is mike. I used to think I had his family too but lately they've been treating me like shit too. I think I'm just destined to be kicked around my whole life, that's my role. Because even when I stand up for myself, I get knocked back down. I want my life back...a life back...I don't want to lose everything and I feel like thats whats happening..
Maybe I just don't belong anywhere or deserve love from anyone...