when is there a good day?

[broken420]

well today feels so empty and lonely without dustin being on and me being able to talk to him. i can't believe we are no longer friends this sucks beyond the ability of any hooker in the world. my mom is having a bad day one of her best friends died today of a stroke. she's miserable crying to no end. laying in her bed and she just looks miserable and lost. i wish i could do something to make her feel better but i can't i'm not a miracle worker or i'd bring her friend back to life. hell if i was a miracle worker i'd be a happy person cuz me and dustin would be talking and somehow i'd find mr. right instead of another mr. right now. life just sucks anymore where are the happy things and happy people. i need happy people i need happiness in my life. i just wanna be able to be happy like everyone else. devin talked to her ex paul today and he acts liek he wants her back so of course she is happy as hell. she told me that josh one of my exs still likes me and has never stopped liking me. last night i talked to blake one of my other exs and he kept saying he loves me but i know he doesnt he just wants some p*ssy when ever he gets up here. not happening.

anyways i feel so incomplete anymore. i quit all my lil habits and well i'm more miserable now than ever before. i feel like i can't find anyone or anything to make me feel complete. it's driving me crazy. i've been picking everything about myself apart since dus quit talking to me. without him around i feel like i dont know myself anymore. maybe i never did. maybe i never will. i dont know. i just dont know anything anymore. i wish someone would just come and save me from this hell i'm living in. ir's driving me crazy.