i'm stupid
well the idea i had to get dustin to read and determine how he makes me feel blew up in my face--huh imagine that he's pissed off at me now. da*nit i need to stop trying and just fing give up on everything. all i wanted was for him to make a decision of being friends or not and now well he is not even talking to me. stupid me. stupid stupid me. yes i'm crying but it's all my fault anyways so nobody need feel sorry for me. i don't feel sorry for me. i feel sorry for him because he use to deal with me being well me. the young insecure affraid to lose everything and everyone she has teenager, that tried to make the world feel sorry for her because she felt sorry for herself. as for me well i have no clue wat to do with my life and no idea if i'll ever hear from the one i love ever again and it's all my own ignorance