Another post that I have no idea how to title
So yeah... do you ever have one of those days where you just feel kinda blah for no reason whatsoever? I'm having one of those right now. I mean for once in my life I have clarity on the way things are going and some things look exceptionally good and others I just don't know about. Meh... I don't know why I strive to have my life figured out 100% already because I know that "nobody" my age has it all figured out. It just seems that a lot of people are a lot farther ahead in the game than I am.
It's kinda sad... I almost feel like I always have to have something to bitch about. I don't mean to come off that way if it seems like that. I dunno... I guess I'm just always questioning one aspect of my life or another. I didn't exactly expect to have a job right away when I moved up here but it's proving to be a little bit more difficult than I expected.
Not having a job puts more stress not only on me, but on Tara and on her family because i'm living with them and don't have anyway to add anything financially to the picture. But also it puts a strain on my plans to go back to school this winter or spring. Thankfully my girlfriend is the most supportive person i've ever been around in my life, but she's also the most honest. If i'm being an idiot she tells me. And she doesn't do it in a mean way either. It almost makes me laugh how sweet she is about telling me I'm a dumbass lol.
Anyway... I just wanted to give you a quick update from the state of Michigan. Other than that I should be back down in the great state of Ohio the day before and the day of Thanksgiving. And then again the week before Christmas for at least a few days. Thats all for now I suppose, though, because i'm not going to talk about anything that happened this weekend at Cedar Point. That weekend, and all of its drama, is in the past and I'd really like to leave it there.
It's kinda sad... I almost feel like I always have to have something to bitch about. I don't mean to come off that way if it seems like that. I dunno... I guess I'm just always questioning one aspect of my life or another. I didn't exactly expect to have a job right away when I moved up here but it's proving to be a little bit more difficult than I expected.
Not having a job puts more stress not only on me, but on Tara and on her family because i'm living with them and don't have anyway to add anything financially to the picture. But also it puts a strain on my plans to go back to school this winter or spring. Thankfully my girlfriend is the most supportive person i've ever been around in my life, but she's also the most honest. If i'm being an idiot she tells me. And she doesn't do it in a mean way either. It almost makes me laugh how sweet she is about telling me I'm a dumbass lol.
Anyway... I just wanted to give you a quick update from the state of Michigan. Other than that I should be back down in the great state of Ohio the day before and the day of Thanksgiving. And then again the week before Christmas for at least a few days. Thats all for now I suppose, though, because i'm not going to talk about anything that happened this weekend at Cedar Point. That weekend, and all of its drama, is in the past and I'd really like to leave it there.