rant
i feel like ranting soo bad..-> ok umm omg i have to get up early tomorrow...cuz my dad is making me get up and hes taking me christmas shopping IN THE MORNING all because he wants to miss the traffic....SON OF A MOTHER...i wanted to sleep in too..well thats not anything different but still. i was actually gonna be able to this time...yea so i might not be home till the afternoon..oh yea and my sister brittany just got home and apparently shes pissed cuz i took some soda out of her room r something like that, but my dad's the one that told me to go get it and so now shes mad at me...its amazing how that works..it seems like no matter what happens at my house i always get some sort blame for everything no matter what! i mean i could go on like vacation r something and then when i get home people would start yelling at me for stuff i didnt even kno happened...and it really pisses me off. i was just doin what i was told (fr once..) and i get in trouble fr it...maybe i just shouldnt do what anyone says or tells me to do..i mean i get yelled at either way its all the same to me! GRRRRR OMG! yea and im probably gonna have a bad and depressing christmas this year cuz i really miss my mom and shes not here... omg i hate this it was terrible i started crying on the bus on wednesday on the way to school and i dont even know why..(well i do, but it was unexpected) and im already starting to get depressed and i dont like being depressed...yea and my dads always mad at me, hes always in a mad mood and brittany like comes home every day and says how much she hates this family and how she hates being home (and i actually got to see her fr the first time today in like 3 weeks) and so i never see her and my dads never home cuz hes at work and my moms obviously not here and so im always home alone..i mean it was fun fr like the first week but now..i dont kno i just dont like it... and ya know what also pisses me off ..ok well i mean i kno that people just wanna be there fr me ever since my mom died and they just wanna help and i kno that they mean well but when people tell me that they kno what its like ..yea there like "oh yea i kno what ur goin through cuz i just lost my grandpa (or grandma or a relative) and we were really close" but they have no idea what its like and they dont kno how i feel! loosing a relative is most defiantly NOT the same thing as loosing a mom or a dad. people dont kno what its like at all. i mean i'v lost a clost relative before and trust me its not the same thing, its a lot worse and a lot harder.....and again i kno people do mean well but unless they really have lost a mom or a dad then it pisses me off when they say stuff like that!
and now i miss all my friends from herndom...lik christina, margaret, claire, noelle, stephanie,...ritu, talya
oh yea and sean keeps on calling me a hick and it seriously pisses me off..i mean i kno hes just playin around but it stil really pisses me off.. and just cuz someone lives in the country dosent mean their a redneck or a hick i mean iv met PLENTY of people that have lived out here in strasburg fr like 3 years and their still not hicks! yea but it just really pisses me off and then when i tell him that it pisses me off he makes fun of me and dosent take me seriously.... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ***sigh***
"She's held on so strong. Finally releasing her grip. Finally released from the pain. Leaving behind the ones she loved with no more burden on their shoulders. They can let go. They can let go of the pain and sorrow inside. Let go of the love and hurt within. But keeping the memories safe and secure. Always and forever remembering her warm eyes. Her sweet smile. Her loving laugh. And her gentile touch. Finally she is free at last. Free from sin. Free from sorrow. Finally letting her wings spread out. Becoming an angel once again." ->me
ok gonna go to bed now bi bi
->*me
and now i miss all my friends from herndom...lik christina, margaret, claire, noelle, stephanie,...ritu, talya
oh yea and sean keeps on calling me a hick and it seriously pisses me off..i mean i kno hes just playin around but it stil really pisses me off.. and just cuz someone lives in the country dosent mean their a redneck or a hick i mean iv met PLENTY of people that have lived out here in strasburg fr like 3 years and their still not hicks! yea but it just really pisses me off and then when i tell him that it pisses me off he makes fun of me and dosent take me seriously.... GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ***sigh***
"She's held on so strong. Finally releasing her grip. Finally released from the pain. Leaving behind the ones she loved with no more burden on their shoulders. They can let go. They can let go of the pain and sorrow inside. Let go of the love and hurt within. But keeping the memories safe and secure. Always and forever remembering her warm eyes. Her sweet smile. Her loving laugh. And her gentile touch. Finally she is free at last. Free from sin. Free from sorrow. Finally letting her wings spread out. Becoming an angel once again." ->me
ok gonna go to bed now bi bi
->*me