And, the world crashes....

Jul 09, 2007 15:44

I know that I'll be better. Right now, it's simply the transition that’s killing me most. And, as soon as I can go a full 5 minutes without crying, then I'll be wonderful. I am fully maintaining this thought: I need a BIG bottle of rum, a gallon of ice cream, a box of tissues, a couple Vicodin 10's, a few Xanax, and a few really good friends...and I'll be fine. Also, I know that goodbyes are always going to hurt. Pictures are never going to replace having been there. Memories good or bad are always going to bring tears, and words are never going to replace my feelings. I'll always love him. That I know. And, I'll never forget him. He made a beyond huge impact on me as a person and my life. However, I have to live, love, and let go, when letting go is the thing to do. No matter how much it hurts. He'll always hold a special place in my heart. I have no doubts about that. But, I have to let him go to live his life and I have to keep on living mine. I won't be myself for a while, but I'll be better again. One day. I fully believe that one day my prince charming will come along, and until then, I'm going to try to keep my head up and keep on keeping on. Deep down, I know that I gained more than I lost, but right now, I'm beyond crushed and I feel like I've lost my world.
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