Oct 09, 2008 11:09
i dont know if it means youre a shitty person, if youve got shitty friends but ive got a whole lot of them. i realized i have no real friends except maybe 3 people who actually want to hang out with me. i feel like certain people only want to hang out with me when their drunk, or theres no one else around, or they need an extra body to fill a spot. and some people, dont have time AT ALL for me and if it wasnt for my phone calls we wouldnt even be in contact anymore. am i really that much of a dread to hang out with? im so tired of making an effort with everyone and never getting any effort back. even more of a reason for me to pack up and go away to college, maybe ill actually meet someone real. i dont mean to complain, but these things really do bother me. i feel like im living in my own world.