my head hurts
ive never had a close relationship with my dad
but this past week ive seen him a lot bc of my
grandmother being in the hospital but last night
when i was playing cards with tim my phone rings,
and its my dad. He is all you know that mom (grandmother)
really enjoyed seeing and talking to you, you need to
see her as much as possible shes getting old you know..
then hes like Boo i want you to know i love you and im sorry i wasnt there to watch you grow up but i just want to let you know i have to go away for a while, and you know
he wouldnt tell me why or where. this is like something
dads tell there little girls when the parents are
getting a divorce..what really sucks is im pretty
sure i know why he has to go away and it sucks because
im just like my dad. i do everything wrong in life,
i hurt the people i love and do the same things he does,
im already making the same mistakes as him and im only 16
my dad is like 50 and he is still like he was and he will
never change and i dont think i will either...my mom always
said i was like my dad and some things he did and said on sunday
when i was at the hospital made me realize that yes i am
exactly like him and in the long run its going to kill me.
i do love my dad and i missed him not being there for me
for the past 16 years but i will always forgive him for everything because a person only gets on father and i was not even lucky enough to know him because of drugs. and that really sucks maybe all my problems began emergng when my father left god, im crying like always and i have to go to school and i dont want to... i just really hope he comes back around and i dont find out 10 years late that he died..
sorry this is so long..if you even read it i just had to get it out..