Nothing gold ever stays
At the moment every single aspect of my life is falling apart.
My best friend decided not to speak to me anymore.
My friend that I can tell anything to basically is going through a bad time, and in that it means they wont be anything but an awful person.
My relationship with Jon is going down the drain.
I just started school and thats the only thing going alright lately, but then again I just started that today.
You know when your welcome is done and there isn't a goddamn thing you can do to change that? Thats where I am right now except it's like that with this town, I should have just moved to Orlando instead of waiting till I turn 18.
I should have just took the risk and went, but then with my luck I would have ended up in a bad situation and lost everything.
I'm not sure where to go from here. I'm not sure whats right and whats wrong. I don't know what to do when I cry, or how to cheer myself up. The only time I'm happy is when I shouldn't be. The things that make me happy shouldn't make me happy.
Everything is fucked up. Nothing makes any sense, and my life was just begining to be complete. What teh fuck happend? I have no clue. It's like someone just decided "Hey lets fuck everything up for this girl!", well thanks a bunch.
Did I mention that everything is fucked up? I don't care about cursing, or if it makes me sound unattractive, honestly I don't give a flying fuck what the hell makes me look attractive anymore. I don't fucking care about anything.
In the end all you have left is yourself, and your notebook.
Nothing gold ever stays...
My best friend decided not to speak to me anymore.
My friend that I can tell anything to basically is going through a bad time, and in that it means they wont be anything but an awful person.
My relationship with Jon is going down the drain.
I just started school and thats the only thing going alright lately, but then again I just started that today.
You know when your welcome is done and there isn't a goddamn thing you can do to change that? Thats where I am right now except it's like that with this town, I should have just moved to Orlando instead of waiting till I turn 18.
I should have just took the risk and went, but then with my luck I would have ended up in a bad situation and lost everything.
I'm not sure where to go from here. I'm not sure whats right and whats wrong. I don't know what to do when I cry, or how to cheer myself up. The only time I'm happy is when I shouldn't be. The things that make me happy shouldn't make me happy.
Everything is fucked up. Nothing makes any sense, and my life was just begining to be complete. What teh fuck happend? I have no clue. It's like someone just decided "Hey lets fuck everything up for this girl!", well thanks a bunch.
Did I mention that everything is fucked up? I don't care about cursing, or if it makes me sound unattractive, honestly I don't give a flying fuck what the hell makes me look attractive anymore. I don't fucking care about anything.
In the end all you have left is yourself, and your notebook.
Nothing gold ever stays...